Feb 15, 2025
Damn i was finally starting to feel better after all the noises outside my room had ceased for some time, i got my pie (and a sandwich, mind you. I don't like to eat a lot all at once but suddenly got extra hungry in my avoidant starvation) and finally took my 9.30am meds (at nearly 2pm).
Then one of the staff (one of my faves actually) started up a very loud yet unintelligible phone call very nearby, which sounded rather heated. So, naturally, the schizospec brain starts trying to convince itself that he is absolutely most definitely complaining about me to god-knows-who.
Why must i endure such trickery and hijinx* at the hands of my own head 🍜🍝 (spag-head-i?)
#it just occurred to me I've no clue if that's supposed to be spelt with an x or a ks#*^#schizospec#actually schizospec#schizospec struggle#i need to ask him for a spare pillow too for sitting up in bed without breaking my back#I couldn't bring my 20“ with me#my 20“ Miry moth that is#(purchased pre-Jazwares-flop)#idek loud unintelligible phone calls could exist until now#they are the worst#because you can't eavesdrop for the tea but instead you get to experience your own brain betraying you telling u they r def talking abt you#ouch someone just slammed a door extremely loudly just outside the door#i hate this i wnna go home#no wonder the other person had to leave#it's so freaking loud#i also feel kinda sad i didn't get to properly meet them but neither of us are doing well today so#maybe another time
