y’all know damn well i love this lil lesbian to death and even though it is so, so hard to Romance her and she won’t even consider being in a relationship except under very specific circumstances/in certain verses.... i think about her getting to be happy n loved in a romantic relationship and i just... kang sae-byeok the gentlewoman that you are
because yes, she’s prickly and private and needs so much alone time even within a relationship she feels genuinely safe and happy in. she’s too used to keeping her guard up and refusing to let her walls down, too used to stifling softness, and is so painfully out of practice when it comes to the whole human connection thing that she will naturally be pretty frustrating to be with at times. but. but. you will never find someone with a bigger heart than her. if you can get over the fact that there’s no chance of you ever being more important than her family — maybe on par with them, but she will always, always choose them over everything ( including herself ) — if you can get past all that then you will have the most earnest, hard-working, and loving partner in the world.
because she’s not overly romantic but this girl just... exudes love. she’s a lover at heart. and she will try so hard to show that love any way she can. she’s not good with her words so she lets her actions speak for her instead.
she’s one of those people who is just constantly doing things for her partner. big things, little things, it doesn’t matter. if you mentioned being out of something like shampoo or dish soap or whatever, even just an offhand comment about having to add something to your grocery list, sae-byeok has already gone out and bought it by the time you get home. she does that chore you keep complaining about so you don’t have to. that thing you saw in the store and stared at before deciding you shouldn’t spend any more money this month? she goes out the next day to get it for you. she’s quick to pick up on patterns and routines, so that tea you make for yourself after your shower every evening? sae-byeok started it while you were drying off so it’s ready when you come out. you mentioned how wonky your old sliding closet door is? sae-byeok is in there figuring out how to replace the track so it stops falling off every time you try to open it. she finds out your favorite meal and tries to make it for you. she always walks you to your door so she knows you got home safely.
she is like... surprisingly well-mannered for all her apparent coldness. because that just stems from the fact that she values her own personal set of principles over what is considered socially pleasant/acceptable. the reason why she comes off the way she does is because she’ll do what she thinks is the right/best thing to do as opposed to what is socially expected of her.
don’t get me wrong. her silence can be annoying and off-putting at times, but one virtue of it is that she is the best listener in the world. she plans that date idea you mentioned only once and never again. she remembers the snacks you like and picks one up for you if she sees it. she remembers your doctor’s appointments/project deadlines/etc without really meaning to.
also very big on quality time. is content to just sit in silence and not really even do anything, just... be together. or maybe little activities like reading next to each other. sits and watches shows and movies with you even if she doesn’t care at all about the plot because she just likes the time spent together. she’ll let her walls down, let you see her tired and aching. and she will never ask for help or for you to do anything about it because that’s just not who she is, but simply letting you see her like that speaks volumes. she stares a lot when she thinks you won’t notice. and when you do catch her eyes, they tell you so much. more than she wants you to know. but as much as she tries to stifle her emotions, the way she feels never fails to come out through the eyes.
she’ll even push past the discomfort of words and try to voice how she feels, even if it is difficult and uncomfortable and things have a habit of coming out all wrong no matter how hard she tries. which is huge for someone who responds to most things with silence, and someone who will straight up walk away from conflicts and situations she doesn’t feel like navigating. but god if she loves someone she will fucking try. in a voice that’s softer for you than it is with anyone else. and geez, she is a terrible flirt when she’s actually trying but somehow she manages to be sort of charming when she isn’t even intending to be.
physical affection is a tough one for her. her discomfort stems from a striking inexperience with it, topped by really only being used to people reaching towards her with the intention to hurt her. but beyond all of that, sae-byeok is like.,,,, woefully touched-starved fr i think. she wants it she just.... doesn’t know how to ask for it. gets flustered by the smallest things and is bad at initiating it herself and really isn’t one for PDA, but she works her way up to hand holding and perhaps the occasional cheek kiss. she will pretend everything is Fine but like if you look over at her, her ears are all red and she’s trying so hard to look anywhere other than in your direction.
she’s way more affectionate behind closed doors. secret little spoon. rests her head on yours when you’re sitting next to each other. likes her hair being played with. when she is tired, be warned, she is the grouchiest teddy bear u will ever meet. tries to cuddle her way into an extra ten minutes of sleep. very Serious kisser like she doesn’t really do flippant little pecks very often. kind of annoying abt it honestly like lighten up girly u don’t need to be so thorough and intense every time. idk i just think she deserves lots of hugs and kisses : (
man i forgot the point of this post i just think that She
