How the fuck do I figure out if I want to be in a (romantic) relationship or not, like I have the opportunity rn but there is so much shit going in my head and I feel horrible most of the time, that it just dosent feel worth it? Am I just afraid? or aroace? menatlly ill? am I lonely? is it my autism? because im pretty sure im not supposed to feel this anxious and strange. sometimes I feel good abt it and other days im like no fucking way, I wanna be alone. Its also not the other person they are sweet as fuck, which makes this so much worse cause I like them but I dort know if I can like them like "that", and I really dont want to hurt them. Figuring this out is horrible, do I know the answer? am I just to afraid to admit it?
















