#*ellis petrin.

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spencer and ellis had such a good relationship. even after their fwb relationship ran its course they still found themselves in each other’s beds because the simple act of just having someone to hold was a big comfort. this arrangement lasted up until spencer’s death (even when spencer was attempting to begin a relationship with rosita, he and ellis still had this closeness, because platonic affection is still important). after spencer’s death ellis had trouble sleeping, and when he did sleep, he had nightmares that would wake him up screaming. spencer wasn’t his first brush with death, obviously, but it affected him so much because spencer and the raleighs are the people who helped ellis the most with settling into this new life  -  not just a life in this next world, but in a sense of helping him find a place in a foreign country that he knew so little about. there are times when ellis still feels like an outsider and a foreigner. it's only ever been with the raleighs and spencer that he’s never felt like that.

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ELLIS PETRIN : 2/?

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“what happened to your family?”   /  @wanlidas​

it evokes something great and terrible, ripping him apart from within. ellis has never forgotten this sensation, but has managed to subdue it some, patching the ache with the connections he’s made since discovering alexandria: the press of aaron’s hand against his shoulder, eric’s laughter making nights less lonely. dinner parties in the raleigh home, spencer stopping by with a dish made all on his own  -  the light little jabs from eric, feigned disbelief as if spencer’s prowess in the kitchen is something new, and spencer’s eyes rolling in unrestrained affection. all these and more are memories held dear, clutched in the bloodied hands of his heart, always his first thoughts in the morning, and in the night as he lays down to sleep  -  but underneath this monster has lurked, growing hungry in the shadows. unintentionally, she has offered it a scrap, the scent of blood drawing a ravenous moan, that ellis feels fully in his chest; it scrapes up his throat in a ragged cry, a shard of glass lodged in his trachea, teeth biting down on the knuckles of his fingers to suppress it. so slowly he crumbles, a shuddering shake slithering down his spine, the bright and vivid image of his mother and father in their paris apartment burning in his peripheral, faces fading, worn beneath the stress of tragedy. they must be dead  ---  some part of him hopes they are. dead in the beginning, before reanimation, not doomed to walk the earth in that mindless state.

silence already grown uncomfortable continues to expand. it is not until it becomes unbearable that ellis looks to her, hair unfurling across his forehead, eyes wet with misery. there is a hitch of shoulders, so faint and defeated, but there’s little anger  -  if any. it’s a reasonable question, after all; what separates us from the monsters, this love and devotion we feel for another. “aaron and eric are my family.”

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ELLIS PETRIN : 3/?

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ELLIS PETRIN : 1/?

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❤️ am i allowed to send this for spencer and ellis just. because

ship meme / accepting 

Who’s more dominant: ellis. i’ve said it to you before but spencer m*nroe is just big bottom energy and this goes for All of his relationships

Who’s the cuddler: both.

Who’s the big spoon/little spoon: spencer’s mainly the little spoon but they switch it up from time to time; it just depends on the mood.

What’s their favorite non-sexual activity: sitting up in the tower at night and trying to pick out constellations. they both suck at it because they’re dumb and they just make up their own instead

Who uses all the hot water: ellis. spencer can’t stand hot water though so he doesn’t mind

Most trivial thing they fight over: how to pronounce certain english words. ellis can’t stand english and how stupidly complicated it is sometimes 

Who does most of the cleaning: spencer.. not because ellis doesn’t want to but spencer just does it automatically. he can’t stand Mess

Who leaves their stuff around: ellis... he’s an idiot,

Who remembers anniversaries: their relationship isn’t really a relationship so ellis never remembered any milestones but spencer can tell you the first day they met, kissed, and had sex. he keeps up with that shit.

Who cooks normally: mr. monroe, the trained chef. he doesn’t like anyone else touching his kitchen

How often do they fight: they’ve never had a serious fight in their life; all of their arguments are dumb shit, so, never, really

What do they do when they’re away from each other: live their lives really... they love each other but it’s still a Casual Thing and so they just don’t mind being apart and having things that are separate from their relationship / friendship

Nicknames for each other: ellis is one of the few who call him spence, and spencer is one of the three people allowed to call ellis eli.

Who steals the covers at night: ellis because he really stays cold even in the dead of summer

What would they get each other for gifts: books (like ellis getting him a collection of hans christian andersen stories; spencer has given ellis books, too, mostly horror, because that’s ellis’ favorite genre), flowers (they both steal them from people’s yards. it’s always a single flower, never a bouquet, and they trade them every night), and spencer gives ellis anything that could be used for the school, which isn’t really a gift, but, i still think it’s cute.

Who kissed who first / who made the first move: spencer kissed ellis first. they’d already grown close at this point / were sleeping in each other’s beds regularly and one night spencer kissed him. then they talked about it and decided that it’d be Fine if they had something casual, just for the Comfort of it.

Who remembers things: really just think it’s spencer again because he remembers literally Everything about Everything. he doesn’t have a photographic memory but his recall is really good

Who started the relationship: isn’t this just the same question as who made the first move.. anyway. spencer.

Who cusses more: ellis.

What would they do if the other one was hurt: make sure they get patched up (holding hands the entire time). if the injury is severe enough that they have to stay in the clinic overnight then both of these dumbasses are gonna sleep in the same bed (and would sleep in the same bed if they’re allowed to go home). it’s just a lot of reassurance and cuddling and making sure they’re both Okay.

Who is the dirty talker: i would say.. neither... like it just doesn’t fit with what they have with each other. maybe a couple words & phrases have slipped out but it’s not something either of them actively do or even want with each other. when they’re together it’s very slow and quiet and calm, and spencer prefers compliments to dirty talk in general [because he thinks a lot of it just sounds ridiculous]

A headcanon: ellis doesn’t like guns but still agreed to allow spencer to teach him how to work his rifle, and actually turned out to be a pretty good shot; he’d man the tower from time to time because he wanted to feel like he contributed more (since ellis struggles a lot with feeling like he doesn’t do Enough for alexandria).