#*journal

[thefaewilds]

Planning to get some adult-ish comms going in the future, have a totally non-binding poll about whether there would be interest~

I'm interested

I'm interested in your regular commissions

I'm not interested

Voting ended onJan 22

This also counts if you currently do not have the funds, it's more so to gauge engagement uwu Feel free to reblog to boost!

[daily-gaston]

[bublegvm]

hands on my throat — #40

28 in a few yet this crippling loneliness only worsen by day.

is it really worth it?

chocking on breath and keep going. as if everything’s fine.

as i burn myself, flames spreading.

bringing misfortune for people around me.

can we end this today? or do i have to face 28 still? or 30, even? do i have to?

not a single person gonna grieve. being no one’s number one, it’s lonely. i’m so painfully lonely. and tired.

[edenstudies]

03.15

first day of class was yesterday. i remember in undergrad my 3-hour lectures used to feel like torture, but now they fly by.

met a few friends who are all younger than me (cries). most of my class is straight from undergrad, which means they generally have less corporate experience than i (and the few over-thirties) have.

pictured here the free starbies from the machine in the caffeine corner and a gift from the husband. business binch tip: layer libre with glossier you. it smells amazing and lasts HOURS.

[edenstudies]

03.08

finally got my official offer letter today! business-broad word of advice, whenever you get offered a job or are given a promotion, make sure you get an offer letter to sign. this will keep your company honest about pay and job responsibilities. if it's not on paper, it never happened!!!

i also received my textbooks; only two because i only have two classes per semester, which is nuts to think about when i used to take four a semesters in undergrad and STILL worked 35 hours a week. they're so small, too. idk why i was expecting like a big mcgraw-hill monster.

i've been toying with the idea of using my tiktok to give advice/perspective about someone in their thirties returning to university after being in the work force for 8 years. not really interested in growth or anything, just sort of sharing my progress in an effort to hold myself accountable in my studies.

i also randomly fell into a fake finance guru rabbit hole, which led to a stocks rabbit hole, and now i find i'm interested in investment banking and finance. who knew?

[bublegvm]

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starting to feel insecure on where i stand and.

feeling like this rn.

also idk i feel like i just got scammed by tt user selling me mac products.

anxieieieieieietyyyyyyyyyy yuhuuuuuuu

[bublegvm]

#39

ok call me dramatic or whatever but. ummmmmm… i feel like something shifted. ok maybe im being dramatic and it’s Not, me being intuitive.

feeling very much mob ????% rn btw.

me when she removed my name from her bio