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umm... concept: snape looking fucked up with scarring from his tussle with buckbeak. even though he managed to leave, where-ever he went (unless he went directly home) was likely to not be well stocked with things like dittany. and he might not have had any immediate chance to heal wounds from that good, good hippogriff.

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stupid headcanon o’clock: being a potions master, and an exceptionally gifted one at that, makes snape a really good cook. a really, really good cook. you wouldn’t know it because when he’s at home he lives off the wizard equivalents of instant ramen, but... he knows.

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i’ve been thinking a lot about snape’s parents. where they went, what happened to them. their house was severus’ alone by the end of the first wizarding war. it’s easy to say moved away, but i think if they’d just left, snape wouldn’t have stayed there. or that they died, but it’s hard to imagine that without involvement in the war they both died before snape was in his mid-twenties with no mention as to how this affected him.

( i’m not going to say “if they’d been important we’d know what happened to them” because that’s not how jkr’s writing works. for example: i’d argue remus’ life story is important and yet 90% of the information we have about him comes from pottermore, not the books. )

so... i think snape killed or was complicit in the death of his father, after which his mother was driven out of cokeworth. there is no evidence either way as to how deeply involved with killings and torture snape got, but as he made his way towards voldemort’s inner circle and eventually became one of his most trusted followers, it seems unlikely that he was uninvolved. he was, as we know, willing to see james and harry dead, just as long as lily was left unharmed.

so why wouldn’t tobias snape be dead? why wouldn’t snape have done it? tobias snape was an abusive father, abusive husband and a muggle to boot. those are three reasons a young death eater has to murder a man, with the first two being motivation and the latter simply being a good excuse. at the very least, tobias snape was handed over to the death eaters.

it was the aftermath of this that left snape haunting his parents’ empty house for the rest of his life.

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i’ve been thinking a lot about snape’s romantic life or lack thereof since it’s relevant to my canon divergency, because the books more or less suggest that snape’s never had a romantic relationship thanks to his obsession with lily. i really don’t dismiss his feelings for lily, she is undoubtedly the most important person in his life both alive and dead - but pining after a woman for decades is bad. 

so anyway ... i’m going to say he has had relationships. they may not be long or numerous or even particularly good, but they will have happened. so far i’ve thought about:

a female death eater / voldemort sympathiser; a very brief and mostly sexual relationship not long after snape left hogwarts. he lost his virginity to her and enjoyed her company, but it fizzled out. it simply wasn’t love, and around this point, snape would have probably done some outward brooding to do with lily that wouldn’t encourage anyone to be his girlfriend.

a male muggle from cokeworth, two years after voldemort’s downfall. this lasted exactly two dates (one at a cafe, the other in the man’s home - they made dinner together, having a shared knack for cooking) before an ugly combination of old prejudices, anxiety and being a jerk ensured snape sent things up in flames.

a slytherin student’s single parent, which lasted six months and was public knowledge, and ended with a surprising amount of affection. this person was looking for a commitment snape wasn’t (and probably isn’t) emotionally capable of providing, so they parted ways. he was viciously bitter for a long time but looks back on it amicably