Being in pain all of the time really really fucks with my ability to be Nice and I try very had but my tone almost all of the time is just not... what I would ideally like it to be and I am also on some level trying to come to terms with THAT, like. Sometimes I'm gonna sound cold or a lil too combative or whatever and I simply don't have the energy to moderate it more than I already am all of the time and I don't need to ... spend a trillion years dwelling on this as a major personal failing















