#...brain

[narratorsprotagonist]

im afraid if I ever get to hang out with narry if he's real cause what if I shake him too much out of pure euphoria and excitement of just being around him

[emerald-amidst-gold]

Just some Fane thoughts

It’s literally almost 3 in the morning, and I can’t sleep (even though I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off all day at work). So, what does my tired brain but not tired brain do? It thinks of Fane. And what I’ve realized is...

...I never decided on a ‘point in time’ where he and Solas confess their feelings to one another. Like that’s IMPORTANT, and I never really thought about it until now. It would definitely not happen after Haven. There’s just intense pining after Haven due to both Solas and Fane being like, ‘Would it be wrong to want more?’ and the fact that Fane is still trying to make sense of who he really is. 

I mean, ‘spoilers’, but their first kiss does happen in the Fade. Just not how Inquisition does it. Solas and Fane’s preferred ‘dream’ is more...personalized, more interwoven with a lot of emotions and memories; both good and bad. I just don’t when that sequence would take place, and I don’t know if that would be when they’d say, ‘I love you’ for the first time, either. 

Solas and Fane just kind of...flow. Everything that happens with them is natural, is fluid, and it isn’t ever rushed. There’s a lot of emotions tied to how each feels and it takes awhile for those feelings to get sorted out. But the problem with that is I find myself allowing them to flow without trying to stem the tide a little. If anything, I rush them, and I think it’s why I haven’t thought this out as much as I should for story reasons. 

So, what I’m thinking now is potentially their confessions/first kiss happening after Adamant after Solas (as well as others) see what Fane’s deepest fear is. It’s a big one, too, and it’s also the point where Solas goes, ‘He truly feels that way? Have my actions thus far only allowed it to fester?’ Like Solas doesn’t flat out push Fane away, he doesn’t ignore him, but there’s reservation. And with how Fane is, he takes ‘reservation’ as ‘disgust’. (my son is not good at reading cues AT ALL.) So, once his fears are laid bare, Fane more or less recedes into himself like a small child, waiting for someone to scold him for letting such weakness show (the Nightmare fucks Fane up. Just saying.). 

Solas would make an effort to close the gap after Adamant, after witnessing that devastating spiral, and thus that’s when their ‘dream’ would occur because it’s a form of affirmation towards someone he had unintentionally hurt through well meaning actions. I mean, it’s partially spurred on by guilt, but it’s also that Solas is starting to come to terms with the fact that Fane is just as lost as he is, if not more, and he wants to bring normalcy into a life sundered as well as give light where there was otherwise darkness in the form of knowledge. 

Hmm, yes. The more I think about that, the more I like it! 3 AM rambling can help the writing soul! >:3 

...As well as kind of using the ‘rubber duck’ technique by posting this. XD

Anyways, thank you for coming to my brain dump about these two fools! Maybe I’ll do more insightful rambles while trying not to be too spoiler-y. 

..Oh, who am I kidding? I’ve already shared so much! Might as well just let the words flow as they come! >:D