#...kind of i guess

[gayteezsnailboats]

*MUSHY POST INCOMING. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK*

I have not been as active here the past few months as I normally am. This just happens in the summer most years. I've still been here and I've still been posting occasionally (more frequently on my other blogs recently) but that's not what this post is about. This post is about one person in particular. While I haven't been posting, that doesn't mean I haven't been watching and it doesn't mean I haven't been talking about shows. But I've also just been talking about...things in general.

I constantly have bad brain days. Days where sometimes I am...just kind of not a good person. Days where I simply do not talk to other people if I can avoid it. When my brain is bad, I am not a pleasant person to interact with. Sometimes my anxiety can cause me to spiral. It can cause me to vent. And there is one person I can always count on to be there for me.

@heretherebedork has been such a stellar friend for me. Francis is constantly just the most amazing person. He is there for me in my worst moments and always meets me with such kindness and zero judgement and I truly, truly hope that I can be at least half as good a friend to him as he has been to me. Everyone deserves someone that will send you words of confidence. That will send you videos that will make you happy. And also send you videos to make you mad (because of terrible audio quality) as good friends do.

Francis is one of the most genuine, thoughtful, patient, and kind souls I have ever met. He is also incredibly funny (he literally just made me laugh as I'm typing this even though he doesn't know that this is what I'm about to post). Whenever I'm having a bad day, he is never angry at me for talking about it and venting. Whenever I need someone to confide in, I know he is there and that I can trust him completely. Francis is aware of multiple of my phobias and will go out of his way to warn me if he thinks there's something in a show that might trigger me. I do not have enough good words to say about Francis.

I hope I tell him enough how much I love and appreciate him but I thought I should share it here too. Because I am sure I am not the only person who loves Francis here. But I want to shout to the world how amazing he is. How much of an incredible person and friend he is. How happy I am that we were able to meet and bond over BL and now I cannot imagine a world where we are not friends.

That's it. Just a Francis appreciation post. There's so much negativity (especially in my own brain yesterday and today for...reasons) that I thought I'd share some positivity. That's all. Love you Francis. Deal with the mushiness.

[vilkalizer]

You'll never defeat my stand, 「Ｙｎｇｗｉｅ　Ｍａｎｇｏｓｔｅｅｎ」!

!!

It... it can't be!

You waited for me to shitpost... so you could catch me in 「Ｃｒｕｎｃｈｙｒｏｌｌ」's localization field?!

UWAAAA!!!

[paradoxi-kay]

I thought too much about the latest Dream of Green chapter and now I’m sad.

Nagare’s problem is (...well. Was.) that his aura, if left unchecked, will expend itself, and he needs to have that power focused inward to keep him “alive”. And the straitjacket (which may or may not be somehow infused with Gray aura, this is extremely unclear or maybe I’m just overestimating GoRA again) keeps his power contained.

But that was fourteen years ago. And even fourteen years ago he was apparently entirely capable of breaking free of his restraints if he wanted to, which means he must have had some amount of control over his power. So why couldn’t he have learned more control over the years, so he could moderate his use of aura without physical restraints and/or Gray aura? Why did he and Iwa-san just settle for the first solution that worked despite its obvious drawbacks?

So much of Nagare’s character seemed focused on him being essentially the same person he was when he awoke as the Green King, which is weird in general and especially weird for someone who was supposed to be the King of “change”.