#013020

[nbagifstory]

De’Aaron Fox — Sacramento Kings

[mrmrswales]

The Duke of Cambridge this morning visited All Saints Primary School, 4 Oakfield, Liverpool.

Court Circular || 30 January 2020

[whenfrasermetbeauchamp]

“George Washington. He will be, perhaps, the most famous American to ever live.”

Talking out of turn

Shot to pieces

When will I learn

Talking out of turn

Shot to pieces

When will I learn

🎶 https://youtu.be/nCYC5DXnGMA

Talking Out Of Turn from Long Distance Voyager, The Moody Blues, 1981

Wilmington

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Gifs: @themusicsweetly S4E8 Wilmington, December 23, 2018

Photo edit: @whenfrasermetbeauchamp from Starz key art

#Outlander #S4E8 Wilmington #Talking Out Of Turn #The Moody Blues #Claire Fraser #Jamie Fraser #Margaret Tryon #Countdown To Season 5 #222 #013020

[gefuuhle]

Hello love,

I miss you in every single way; the way your quiet staring breaks into an uncontrollable smile, the way you’d hold my hand, and the way that you feel—holding me, kissing me, and making love to me. I miss you with such an intensity that I don’t have the language for. Most of the things you make me feel always escape my wide vocabulary; there’s so much intensity in loving, longing, smiling, and hurting. On nights when I am arrested by this intensity, I just let myself succumb to it. Tonight is one of those nights' love. So much has happened today and so much more energy and thought have gone into every single one of those events. I always find myself reassessing our relationship, not in the sense of thinking about whether to keep going or to move on, but in the sense of how to move forward from the mounting challenges we find ourselves in. At some point, along with coming to accept the intensity of everything I feel for you, I’ve also come to realize that this is something I’m willing to pour my everything into. Maybe it’s because I naively feel like if I work for it hard enough and if I give it my all it’s going to work out. I know life doesn’t work that way but I can’t help but wish it would. On the way home, I’ve been contemplating about how hard the next few months are going to be for us, but how worth it the future will be. I can’t help but feel like we really do work perfectly love, it’s just that the world is committed to making it as difficult as it can for us because we’re just too perfect for each other. Until now, after sobering up from another fit of tears, I still firmly believe that. I trust that you love me with a proximate intensity. Here I use the term proximate because I would never fully be able to grasp how much you feel for me. All I know is that you feel for me very, very much. Even despite your absence, I know that you do. It’s just that what you’re going through has nothing to do with me, and, more so, how you feel about it has absolutely nothing to do with me.

It is only with constant reassessment that I realize these things; too often I allow myself to be consumed by my own feelings, inducing myself with a blindness to truth. My feelings are valid, but it doesn’t mean that they’re true all the time. With you I’m learning to accept that. The truth is, regardless of how this setup makes me feel, you love me in the most honest way possible. It’s just that love is not a panacea for past mistakes and personal issues. The past few weeks have been so incredibly hard darling, but they are absolutely necessary for both of us, not just as a couple, but also as individuals. For us to develop the most nurturing relationship possible, we must first learn to nurture ourselves. I know I am overly attached. Communication, intimacy, and loving come very easy to me. Too easy, in fact, that I often undermine how daunting it is for most people; you included, if not the most. I know talking about how you feel is never an easy thing with you love. For most of your life, you had to put yourself and your feelings aside in favor of other people, never being able to verbalize how you truly feel because you care about them too much. I’m constantly amazed at how bottling up all that pain has not made you any less kind. To cope with things, I read and listened to a couple of things about attachment styles, and you seem to fit the avoidant type, and I, the anxious type. Both are extreme poles on either ends of the secure attachment type. Avoidant types are the types to rarely speak about themselves or share intimate parts of themselves to their significant others, and this is a manifestation of their fears of being abandoned or left behind. In your case, that is also compounded with the incessant need to avoid burdening the other person. The anxious type, on the other hand, are often in need of intimacy and closeness and panic at the first sign of distance. Understanding it in this light, however stereotypical it may be, makes a lot of sense to me. I come off as needy because I am very unrelenting when it comes to issues. I always want to settle them as soon as possible, in the most honest of ways. In my book, honesty is the best way to fix things, but I neglect to remember that for some people it takes time and it doesn’t come as easy. With you, I’m learning to be patient with these things. Forgive me if I err sometimes love. I promise I do try my best, much in the same way that you try to tell me how you feel. It just takes time as well. And however strongly I feel anger, sadness, and disappointment, I must constantly remind myself that these things take time. Giving it my all doesn’t just mean that I fully come to accept the emotional consequences that come at the price of loving, but it also means learning to pick myself up in the aftermath and trust that things take time.

We cannot suddenly overcome our issues overnight; I can’t overcome my need for convenient relationships and set-ups in a week, in the same way that you can’t overcome over a decade’s worth of trauma in a month. You’re trying your best love, but I know that also means resting when you should. I know that in your absence, I have to learn to do the same. I recognize that you do need to take time off from things. That is very well-deserved. But absolutely avoiding things all-together is not a healthy way to deal with things. I know that you know that, and I know that on days when you have the energy, you do try to do that. It’s just that the past few days hasn’t been one of those good days. Perhaps the fear comes from the idea that you will always continue to be avoidant once all said and done, although I’m very happy that you’re willing to talk about them. I can see how much you try with your willingness to negotiate, and your constant efforts to meet me half-way. I appreciate you so much more for that.

When things get too daunting, I find that it is always important to celebrate little victories, which I hope I would get to do with you soon love. Thank you for always taking the time to talk to me, even about hard things love. I’m always here when you need me. I’ll take you to the beach soon, to celebrate you making it through a very very rough patch. I love you so very much.

With all my love, always, Gato

[anodetomy19yearoldself]

Hello February.

Let me connect with my consciousness and subconsciousness.

[anodetomy19yearoldself]

It’s high time I retreat once more. It’s been great so far. I still can’t trust anyone though. I just see theough their bullshit. No, they don’t have to be perfect. But they have to at least know what’s politically correct.

I’m tired of calling everyone ignorant just because I know stuff. And I can’t even teach them because I’m too lazy and too much unaccountable to be anyone’s professor to being decent.

Hey, at least my brain’s back. It doesn’t hurt anymore when I try to think things. That’s a win, I guess.

[yawningpolarbear]

Looking formal but not acting formal

I missed making GIFs so I made these yay hehe lol kunwari may patutunguhan yung life nya oops hahahaha

[nikowlodeonx]

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Lablab ko na yan ♥️♥️♥️

Kumusta ka na dyan? Uhmm. Miss na miss na kita eh. Alam mo ba yun.

Normal day, alam mo palagi naman na ako tinatamad sa store. Kung di mo lang sinabi na wag akong aalis, aba umalis na talaga ako matagal na.

So dahil tamad ako, nag half-day ako. Nagpunta ako ICR kasi may event si pem. Nakakatuwa kasi ang galing na niya ♥️♥️♥️ Magkakasama kami nila mommy at daddy, sayang wala si Pat.

Tas nung pauwi na, nauna na kami ni Pem sa bahay tas sila mommy nag punta ng Palamigan bumili ng bihon uhmmm yum yum 🤤🤤 Habang nag ddinner kami, tumawag ka. Again, MY HEART IZZZ HAPPY 💓💓💓

Ang dami mong kwento sabi mo. Ipunin mo lang yan kasi pag umuwi ka, magsasama na tayong dalawa. ♥️ Magsawa ka kaka-kwento sakin. Hihihi. I love you, handsome.