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Jaguar Amaranth (#020112 to #f22f60)
what hurts the most?
what hurts the most? the moment he stepped out of your life? the moment he's into someone? or the moment where he no longer seeks for you? i think it happens when he no longer seeks for me. what happened between the both of us has put a number of obstacles for us to pass through. nonetheless, he has already someone in line waiting. the fact that I'm still lingering around waiting for him to call, the fact that m still here trying my hardest to distance myself away from him... it hurts. it hurts that i still do care about him, wanting to know how he is now, what he's doing, what is his dislike and likes now... i want to know everything. Yet, i have so many doors to pass through before I'm able to speak to him... gave him a call today. 2 calls i mean. missed calls. he gave me a missed call yesterday at 12:05. i was worried for him. thinking maybe he has something big going on. or maybe he needs someone to talk to other than his girlfriend... but he didn't pick up both of my calls. so i decided to stop. maybe i was invading his privacy time. i definitely did not put my hopes up hoping that he would answer my calls. deep down i know i wanted to hear his voice. his sweet and raspy voice when he's awake. I've gotten used to that voice since i was 11. but now, it's like i don't even know how his voice sounds like anymore. i have been trying my best to move on. trying my hardest to put more than 4 walls around my heart to not feel anything for him anymore. but i just can't. at the end of the day, i would still have him lingering around my mind... what have you done to me?
You.
I felt a little lonely today. it feels as if my world is starting to change to be much of me. and less of other people, the more i feel this way, the more i see how happy you are with someone else. maybe its time.
妈妈，我很想你啊 😘😚。。 #missingmommy #mama #missmissmiss #020112 #melacca #throwback #amonthtogo #waitmeback
February 1, 2012 (Wednesday)
It's the 1st day of February. Jaja was not really mad so we made up. I was planning to give my Yonghwa keychain to her but I forgot to give it today. I hugged her while were in the hallway while we're getting out of the room and said sorry again. Justine was just behind me so I guess he saw it. I'm glad that she forgave me. Dexter told us that he will transfer to the other team. He was siting outside the room, along the hallway. Justine and Marvin were already there. I went outside to talk to him. Justine was listening to music with his headset. We're quiet noisy so I guess he could hear my voice. I dunno what he was thinking but he constantly looked at me. I just didn't pansin him 'cause I'm too focused on persuading Dexter to come back to us.