#05.10.11

[2tiedships2]

Memorable moments series: October 2011

[jayyc]

you and i

It'll never work out,

you and i,

we'll always be apart.

but right from the start

i thought I'd have you in my heart,

Maybe we're not meant to be, since

you were never into me.

Even thought it hurts to know 

that we can't be the ones whom

I thought would glow,

I'lll be there by your side

everyday and,

very night of every single minute 

of your life.

[medicated]

05.10.11

The Thudarr - The Barbarian action figure set i bought on eba arrived. The figures look awesome! Thundarr seems well fed rather than muscular. Like a classic wrestler. The Wife worked longer than planned so i started to clean the flat and watched the latest episode of Fringe. It's interesting to see that so many people dislike the show. Also had a talk about free speech on the internet because of a very rough statement about the quality of Fringe. You should elaborate on things you don't like because it helps you learning about yourself, but shouldn't a positive statement should be elaborate as well? And on the other hand, the internet should be a place of free speech, so if somebody calls something "a pile of shit" you can argue about the form of the statement, but not its meaning.

[sammysoysauce]

the downside to the last day

It's bittersweet to think that in less than thirty days it will be the last day of school meaning no more homework for once but also no more seniors because they'll be graduating and doing what every teenager hopes to do at some point in their life. Just leave and see the world. And i've put aside this idea of my senior friends leaving because i don't want to be the one to cry in class a month before it's even here. It. The people that i met freshman year and the people that i've met since then are graduating in less than a month. One month is all i have before things are different and i don't want to think about whether or not it will be different in a good way or different in a bad way because i think i already know the answer to that. Every class i'm in, i can't help but wish it would last just a bit longer than the regular ninety minutes because pretty soon there won't be any more classes to have with them. And then to think that where they are now will be where i will be in just a little over a year. A year is all i have to really figure out what i want in life because the days are starting to dwindle down faster and faster and i can't procrastinate on this or anything else for much longer. I'm going to miss the seniors so much because everything will just feel empty without them for a long time and even though i know they'll visit, i'll just miss being able to see them on a regular basis. Consistency has to leave at some point but at least not all my friends are leaving. At least there's summer. Hopefully this summer will be filled with so many memories that the goodbyes won't feel so terrible.

[deandagreat]

Confession: I sometimes cry myself to sleep thinking about what happened and what should of happened.