Just realized I’ve been so desperate for love from others because I didn’t love myself truly and I looked for external validation to help reaffirm my existence... my line of thinking was if this person loved me or this person then I’m truly deserving of love and I can begin treating myself w care and self adoration
When it’s not true at all and now that I’ve actually truly genuinely fallen in love with myself and accepted myself in all of its parts I no longer look for external sources of love and I’m just so satisfied w myself
This level of comfort and love is something I never experienced... no longer feeling alien and inhuman and ostracized. I can’t begin to articulate the feelings of assurance I have rn in myself and it feels so good like a burden lifted off my back