#053117

[memeladdd]

MINIS LIVE ON YOUTUBE STREAMING FRIDAY THE 13TH

[5x22]

may 31 - june 1, 2017.

Not much happened today. I sort of had a busy day and honestly it didn’t seem like we spoke much at all. It didn’t seem like it was enough but we spoke a good amount and if anything at least i didn’t have to be without you the whole day.

You showed me a movie you were very excited about as the day changed, you said you weren’t sure if you liked it but you wanted to see it anyway. It was nice. I enjoyed it and I enjoyed your enthusiasm about it. Of course we couldn’t skip out on the fancams and you had to play the lisp thing… the date ended with our usual deep talks and a tiny bit of cuddles. Thank you.

[5x22]

may 31, 2017.

It happened today if you want to be technical. But it was planned ever since I realized I loved you and it was taking effect a day before. I was busy all day and I hardly talked to you, part of it was because I simply couldn’t get a hold of my phone and the other was because I knew as soon as I open our text thread I would want to spill everything to you.

I don’t know that I ever stopped thinking about how crazy this was, my mind constantly reminding me that I was overstepping and I was bound to crush all the good things that came with you but my heart said this is what I wanted and I should do it. Obviously my heart won, I suppose it’s a good thing I let it. I’ve never done this, I’ve never had the desire to or been in the situation to do so and I had frankly no clue as to what I was doing. It was like the words spoke themselves when we were sitting under the stars, the chilly breeze hitting us and my love for you and the night sky overwhelming me.

I felt like the shining stars were advising me on how to ask you. With each gleam they seemed to give me little tips and tricks, they told me what kind of words to use and how I should exert confidence. They were really helpful and that is why they brought me to tears, because I think they know how much I love you and how much I wanted this. They helped me and they made sure the lights were just right for the moment we shared. If i had not rambled so much beforehand about colors and feelings and my day then I might have had more to say that was not repetition. I had no idea what to expect but I was preparing for a no because this seemed crazy still, I am not the wisest. I let myself be guided by feelings and the ones I have for you cannot even control themselves.

I want to thank the stars for making the mood. I want to thank them for the advice, the words that boosted my confidence and the aura they set for us to sit in. I want to thank them for telling me I could, so I would. I think they dimmed themselves so I could see how bright you are, so I could notice that the only star I have to admire is my lover. So thank you stars, and thank you for being the most beautiful of them all.

[yeecenia]

Yesterday 🎬 Movie Date #053117

[thoughtsthoughtsandmorethoughs]

DBaker

There's something so familiar and comfortable about you. When the musics playing, I dance on your feet and rest my head on your chest and just feel like time has stopped and it's just you me and nothing more floating around the room. When I catch you gazing back at me I feel like your staring into my soul looking beyond everything you see outwardly. Actually enjoying the person inside me and smiling at all your able to see in there. You give me so much peace. I rest in you. I fall deeper and deeper for your kindness, giver attitude, and the foundation of your inner being. Truly a blessing to experience!

[unconventionvl]

had the best day :')

[skinned-deep]

wanting to die but knowing that this feeling will pass is even worse than when i wanted to do something about it. im here fighting my mind. fighting every gut feeling to end it all because i know this feeling is fleeting. but at the same time. i can feel every aching fiber in my body hurting and i want it to go away. someone please save me from my mind.

[suisized]

I didn’t understand why I so badly wanted to know what you were up to. I was so invested in what you felt and what you thought about me. I wondered if you ever thought about what we could’ve been had we not given up on it so quickly. I didn’t realize that through this all, I was just ruining myself. I was falling for someone that already loved someone else. Someone that could never reciprocate these feelings that so burned in me. It was, unknowingly, self inflicted pain and god knows just how good I was at that.