#062816

[acutestyle]

06.28.16

[acutestyle]

06.28.16

[acutestyle]

06.28.16

[kaaatalinerr-blog]

ENTRY # 4

Today at philo time my seatmate, crush, and i exchanged seats. Again i’m seating at the left side of center isle and what happened is my seatmate is sitting at my seat my crush sitting at my seatmate’s and i am seating beside my crush. The three of us, i couldn’t say that we’re close but we’re friends. But of course they are guys so sometimes i’m really lost of what they’re talking about and also i don’t care because im hella busy listening to our philo teacher. When sir was checking attendance vrush asked me if i have a crush in our section and im like “ what? 3 weeks palang tayo” and damn i was nervous and my heart is beating so fast for idk reason and he said “ ah ok so nag o-observe ka palang? ” i nodded “pareho tayo, kaya ako tahimik last week kasi i was observing our classmates” he said. Next class was ict and crush remained in our row. I sat back at my seat and crush sat beside my seatmate. We are using our phones for discussion purposes. Crush showed to my seatmate his phone with avicii sign and i was like “ you like avicii?” And he literally looked at me immediately and in shock “ gusto mo rin si avicii? ” and i said yes and we then said many more edm artists. After ict was lunch he gave me his phone and showed me his complete playlist. I swear i’m screaming inside because he just let me browse his phone. He asked me if im going out and eat lunch, i nodded which mad his smile gone because, maybe, i dont know, we will talk about more edm stuffs. I think he doesnt go outside every lunch im not sure, and im also eating lunch with my other new found friends so i just let tomorrow make my new entry interesting.

[themustardseedling]

1.5 weeks

It's only been 1.5 weeks but at the same time, it's already been 1.5 weeks. Honestly, I'm struggling... But Lord thank you so much for the honesty, the acceptance, the prayers, and the empowerment from Your name. I'm supposed to be sleeping right now because the 6 am work outs every morning wreck me but I just wanted to remember this night where prayer in Your name was so powerful, where openness was so genuine, where the love of Christ was so present. Thank you for my family group. Thank you for this struggle. Thank you for revealing more of my sins to me so that I can continue the journey of redemption and renewal. I will write about this more thoroughly later but I just haven't had the time because the schedule is so packed. But here's a mini update: I'm struggling mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually but Lord I am so confident you are PRESENT and WORKING.

[eliasen-blog1]

june 28

boyfriend has said maybe 3 sentences to me all evening.  he has been busy playing a new video game.

so here is what i did instead:

1. made dinner (chicken parmesan bake, he loved it last time but this time he didn’t even notice i had cooked anything - plus the beef stew i made him is still in the fridge, untouched.  guess i will have to toss it tomorrow)

2. ate my dinner, which was salad, hummus, and bread

3. did the dishes

4. made a vet appointment for the cat tomorrow

5. gave the cat his ear medicine (which i have been neglecting - oops :( poor baby)

6. did the laundry

7. talked to my mom

and now i guess it’s time for me to go to sleep, alone.

so bloated from everything i’ve been eating recently.  why.  i’m not even hungry.

i’m just so tired.