#080210

[theelephantinther00m]

T,

Tonight opened my eyes and my heart to so many things I wish I was strong enough to see ten months ago. Today should have been completely different. We should have both already requested off work so we had no obligations but each other for the day. We would have slept in together and I would have made us both waffles while you were in the shower and put too much peanut butter on yours. But you wouldn’t say anything about it because you thought it was sweet that I tried. I would have gotten in the shower after we ate while you were getting ready. We would have gotten ready together and left for anywhere but home to just enjoy each other for the day. We would’ve stopped at speedway before we’d even tried to decide where we were going. Monster and a 32 oz code red. Light up a cigarette and take off. Just like we started just about every day we spent together. It was our routine. It was our safety to assure the day would be good. Because we were each others safety net. And I was too scared to let myself see it.  Today should have been spent just like that. You’d still be wearing the ring I bought you. Because that one was it. You never wanted a different one. And neither did I. I’d still be wearing mine. We’d still be in love, we’d still be happy, we’d still be together, you would be here next to me in this bed and we'd be falling asleep with you as my little t spoon, and we would damn sure still be planning that beautiful and obtainable future we had promised each other and that we promised Avery, Hadley, and Maddox.

The biggest regret I have is forcing you to walk away from me that bitter night in October. Because the smartest thing I ever did, was make you all mine. Happy three years.

All my love, always

P

[kpopspecialstagee]

Im Taekyung ~ You Raise Me Up

Originally by Secret Garden ft. Brian Kennedy & Tracey Campbell-Nation

[happycamperferl]

Flashing lights

August 02-07, 2010

So this was basically my week. I pretty much hated this week. d:

Monday; Actually, for a Monday it was pretty chill. I thought I was just gonna go straight home but instead I went to Nina's house with Lex. We took the new Dash route with the fare of 35 cents. lol! We were all excited but it was like nothing, it was pretty funny. But yeah, got to Nina's house and she got me all into her Asian band; Shinee. My new guilty pleasure. Justkeed. ;D But yeah, we ate. Then went back to her room and watched Extreme Movie. OH MY, do NOT watch this movie. It's so awkward, but it was hilarious. We did not expect it. We just wanted to watch it because Michael Cera<3 was in it. But he was barely in it for like 2 minutes. d: But yeah, it was funny. Then we watched this Asian movie called My Love. Lex left like in the beginning of it, LAME. But yeah, I didn't cry. ;D Nina teared up. I forced myself not to cry. (x But yeah, AFTER we just talked/vented/told stories. LOVED IT! lol! We still have to do it again since we live so close to each other. But yeah, she dropped me home. Good Monday. (:

Tuesday. Bused it to LA and went to Hermie's house to practice for our recording for our song for the BMA's! It went pretty good. (: But yeah, afterwards went to Kuya Jr's house and took a nap. Then church afterwards. Oh my, after though I got SO PISSED from the news. But felt better when I got home.

Wednesday. This is when the shit started. My tummy started hurting like fuuuu. It was so horrible, I thought I was like dying or something. (x But yeah, I still went to school anyway. After, just went to get a dollar ice cream at Foster's with Laurie then bused it home. Oh my, this guy on the bus was so creepy! He was like "huffing" apparently and like he was being all weird! But he got off the bus, so it was okay. But yeah, I got home and I just got a random fever! I was in bed for most of the day. And that's when the HIM thang started too. Hated it even more because I was sick too, so UGH. d: But yeah, all I ate this day was that ice cream and a banana because my mom forced me to eat it for medicine.

Thursday. I thought I was feeling better so I went to school. Ended up throwing up during class so I told my mother to pick me up. So I just went home. I was really craving some boba so wife brought me some, yay! Went to rent some movies and got me some chapstick. Rented Kick Ass and Adventureland, watched at my house. It was weird because we're usually not at my house but we watched it anyway. But she left and I stayed home. HIM again, fuck you.

Friday. Felt better, f'sho! So went to school. After, mother picked me up and dropped me off at Hermie's. And recorded our song all professionally, loved it! But I can't really leak anything about it, so sorry. Just wait until the BMA's. (; But yeah, I was there most of the day. It was so tiring, but I was with awesome people. So it was all good. Went home, called the world. lol! Good catching up with Samm. (x

Todaaaaay! The worst morning. But went to Hermie's house again for the first day of filming. And my churchies really know how to get my mind off things. (: So yeah, played games and such. It was chill.

VENT ABOUT the TOAST. d:

So let's just say, it's done with. Hah, a month. That's cute. Is that what you do to all the people you "talk" with? Just so you can get over that other girl? Real mature. I've never been played like that EVER. That's the only thing that got to me. Not that you used me or anything but how I feel so stupid about being that girl. Hah. You were fun while it lasted. Just that usual summer thing of MINE. d:

LALALA, hook it up.