#09.04.18

[louisfashionarchive]

Louis at BBC Radio 1 | September 4, 2018

Gosha Rubchinskiy 'Exclamation Point' Turtleneck ($225)

[sleepsucks]

[zaynmalikupdates]

thekooples: The #ZaynbyTheKooples collection echoes the key patterns of our Fall-Winter 2018 collection, complementing the new masculine wardrobe of the season. Tap now to pre-book this backpack or link in bio!

[2tiedships2]

Manchester - 9 April 2018

[thedailyfivesos]

Philadelphia, PA. - April 09, 2018. [x]

[stardustcrusader-fei]

It’s my girl Fei’s birthday in one week!!! (´∀｀)♡

I have a beautiful art featuring the birthday girl that I’ll be posting soon. d(-_^)

[lilolilyr]

Letitia Wright in Drake - Nice For What (dir. Karena Evans)

[amorememe]

This website is a joke

I don’t want to seem unappreciative to the few people who actually still want to support me and care about me or this blog (Panon if you’re out there like holy shit I owe so much to you). But at the same time this website has become a fucking joke. I don’t know if it’s because 1. I got targeted by one t**f and some fucking idiot reblogged it starting a discourse with the t**f, drawing many more to me or because 2. the girlslikeus tag is now a place for disgusting people to target BUT KNOW THIS since that incident happened and since I called out the large number of disgusting followers I was getting, my notifications from tumblr have been consistently more disgusting people. Just awful fucking garbage trying to follow me or message me every day. 

I know there are some people who still follow me that give a shit, I know you’re out there. But I have 750 followers (all of which I decided were real decent people when I let them follow me) and yet when I post things here now I get like 40 notes of nice stuff and 20 notes of awful stuff. It’s not about needing to get 100 notes or something to have self worth. But like, where are these 750 people? I feel like I have 10-20 followers who actually care and everyone else just doesn’t give a shit and I’m sorry but with all the above bullshit I mentioned it’s just not enough. I want to log out of this account and not touch it for months but I can’t because I know that awful people will message me or comment on my posts or reblog my posts to places they don’t deserve to fucking end up on. 

The fact that my identity is a f*tish on this website is so fucking gross. Like everyone is welcome to be into whatever shit they want, but how fucking dare you make me into a k*nk. How fucking dare you look at my blog, which is a honest and pure photographical journey of what I’m going through, and decide that I am a s*x object. I literally have to censor these words because I’m scared of copping more shit. I am pretty sure that posting this anyways will just give me more shit. But for the few people who actually do care, just know like, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I stopped posting a lot, or answering anons and messages when I didn’t have to put up with bullshit. And I’m sorry I can’t stay here now. I’m sorry I can’t have an active voice here anymore. I’m sorry I can’t meet people and share experiences and grow from one another. I’m sorry I can’t be this inspirational blog for someone else that I needed when I was starting out.

If any of you are still reading this just know that I am okay, my real life is going well, I want to be back here but I can’t because it’s fucking bullshit right now and I’m sorry about that.