#101513

[honeyboox3]

i hope.. someday you come back.. cause i miss that beautiful smile and laugh.. i miss you clinging onto my arm and laying your head on my shoulder when we shopped.. i miss you so damn much..

[honeyboox3]

I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON MY DREAM EVEN IF SHE BLOCKS ME AND NEVER WANTS TO TALK TO ME AGAIN. I CANNOT GIVE UP ON “US” I WANT TO SAVE IT FOR BOTH OUR FUTURES!

[pnwpnk]

DUDE you saw paramore on my birthday! That's p rad

That’s awesome, man! I’m going to remember that date for the rest of my life haha you’ve got a rad birthday, friend. 

[jeribunny]

LII: kawaiihoneybearbunny

I think I’m falling for him. No.. I absolutely am positive that I am falling for him. He is what I want to be with. Everything about him embodies the being that I can imagine myself relaxing with for the rest of my life. Maybe I’m just being young and naive, or that’s how it may appear in other people’s eyes. But I know. I know for a fact that this guy, is who I want to grow to love. From the very beginning I knew, from the day I met him I knew. That no matter what, no matter where I was in life, the vision of him will always be on the back-burner. I didn’t really know him much, he barely spoke to me. I knew he didn’t want to cross that line, he didn’t have to say it at all. He didn’t want to go against the fact that I used to cozy it up with one of his close companions, no he had too much respect. But I persisted. I knew I’d get him, I even thought to myself that it would probably take a few years for him to even consider me. So I sought different people, but I knew that they weren’t going to satisfy what I wanted. I wanted him. Even if I didn’t know his habits, his goals yet. I had a feeling I’d like them. I had a feeling that I would grow to love his entire being, I had a feeling that a lasting romance would suddenly grow out of is and we’d continue to grow together.

The more I got to know him, the more my heart yearned for his presence. I let myself be vulnerable. I let go of the reigns, let the trip move along as freely as it wants to go. I’m not controlling this journey, and neither is he. Because apparently I was not according to his plans, we’re both planners. The universe had this in store for us. The universe knew, like I had, that my soul and his soul were one, and it was only a matter of time that we joined together and begin the real journey.

[jeribunny]

LI: Quick Thoughts

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I completely let loose. Erase all second thoughts and just go with my gut feeling all the time. I set this mindset to different stages in my life. I wonder where I would have led up to, where I would be right now, if life led me up to creating this very blog post even if i had made a different decision. I wonder if I would even have a stable home, maybe I’d be out living from house to house, doing various little jobs just to get by. I wonder if I got all the body modifications I wanted, the piercings, the tattoos, everything, would I still be here? Perhaps I’d even be in a better place where I can be myself. Perhaps I’d be filled with guilt and regret, begging to come back home.

Perhaps I’d be stuck in a dead-end relationship. Perhaps I’d enter a mid-mid-life crisis, and then a mid-life crisis as I got older, perhaps I’d be a less spontaneous person. Or more spontaneous Perhaps I’d be a completely different person from who I am today, and I wouldn’t even exist. But another me would, and that’s just too disturbing to think about.

Okay, too much thought, not used to it.