#11:08am

[llorandoenpoesia]

Soy sabia en el amor porque he besado muchos labios. Pero jamás cambiaría los de él.

Silent Screams

[yeah-fo-sho]

Girl Meets Ski Lodge Part 2

Otp: Someday? Someday.

Girl Meets Bear

Otp: Long game? Long game.

Girl Meets Bear

Otp: Till next time? Till next time.

Me: Endgame? Endgame.

[freckly-lix]

“I guess i’ll have to let you go..~”

To s.c.

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #68: December 3rd, 2019 (11:08am)

I should have made this entry last night, but I was feeling very stressed out and feeling panicked. Yesterday was the day I finally finished all my assignments for the semester, so you think I'd be less stressed. But no. First, I find out eleven days after the fact that my placement coordinator did allocate me and that the confirmation is due in ten days. On top of that it's not even a summer allocation like I specified, but instead it's a part time allocation. I didn't want to be doing my placement whole I was in school, that's why I specified summer, but I guess I don't have a choice now.

Second, I ran into the devil yesterday, Ryan. Or maybe I should say he ran into me. After class he just said "hi" in passing. He caught me off guard and I didn't say anything back, but the shock on my face clearly got someone else I knew interested. I passed it off simply. I just told her he was someone I used to know that I distance myself from. She asked if something happened. I said yes, but I don't really want to get into it. I wish I had reacted differently. I wish I had said something like, "you are evil and you should crawl back to whatever pit it is that you came from and stay away from me." Part of me want him to know that he hurt me, but I really don't want to deal with him at all. So I didn't go after him it anything. It just made my whole day go to shit. And now I'm left feeling more depressed. Also thinking about the kids at my middle School placement... I don't want to hurt anyone else. This is getting out of hand and I need to stop it.

[sadgh0st-y]

good morning ladies let’s have this identity crisis

[howhon3st]

Tuesday.August2.2016

Sitting up right in bed again...just listening to music. These are the moments i’m feeling alive. Some days i really feel the music.  Wondering about him again.. it’s been 8 months... and I still think of you. I KNOW you’re not the one.. .so why do  I torture myself. I want to cry but i’m not going to. I’m thinking of how things used to be.  It’s still hard for me right now but it was 10 times harder for me back then. He really made me cry. Like never before.. never knew it was possible. The only reason i’m still going is because of GOD. I have faith that everything happens for a reason. I’ve come to the point where I wish him well.. even if he does not wish me the same. i just want him to be happy.. even if i’m not a part of it. I hope he pursues his dreams, i hope he stops doing drugs, i hope he finds love, i hope he learns the things that i do. I hope his life is filled with more positivity. I’m still really sorry for what his ex girl friend did to him. I feel really bad she did... i don’t know how he’s handling it. I do still wonder what he thinks about me.... or if he even does. Though it seems like he tries to spite me I can not assume. But it’s okay... as long as he’s happy. I think that’s what real Love is.. it’s selfless.. it’s all about the other person’s happiness. <3 I hope i have a happy ending too.. Praying to you GOD! I know you got me. :) Soon he will fade... but that’s life (even though i don’t want him too..) 

[s-implethoughts]

I should sit in the student lounge more. I met new guys yesterday and made friends with them. It was fun. It just kind of sucks how I don't have any friends that are girls... All the friends I made at college are guys... Like all the girls look like snobby bitches. Sigh...

[asianlauren]

Friday Night

Wow, tonight was an interesting night. It was just supposed to be a movie. But because my errands ran later than I expected, it turned into a sleepover. We ate really fast dinner at Katz before going to see vampire academy. Which by the way, was super cheesy, yet somehow good. According to my friend. Then we drove around looking for parks at midnight. We finally found this park in her neighborhood. Then I just wanted to swing, because I had a lot of energy. So while I was swinging, I was shouting about how I'm a communist dictator and I feel amazing. Sadly the night didn't end with me ripping my shorts on the swing. We went back to her house and apparently I crashed all over the bed. So everyone else slept on the floor. But I only remember being on the corner of the bed. After that, we woke up and had waffles and rolls for breakfast. Then I had to take Kat home and start my day.