#12.20.15

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kararosemarshall: Sweet eds

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sophiaxsmith: Hi gorj 💋 @lottietommo123

[elceeu2morrow]

Louis in denim, Chicago Dec 2015 (x,x,x,x)

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Niall with friends at Filty McNasty’s 12.20.15 (x)

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Louis in Sandro, Chicago Edition

Dee Dee Jacket

Alaska Parka

Boat Jumper

[outflowofemotion]

did I even know you?

we used to talk so much

but as I look back what did we even say?

when did you ever tell me anything about you?

how do I know the things I know?

I know you’re vindictive.

I know you get jealous.

I know you love back rubs,

fast cars, naps, showers, weed.

I know you’re intelligent.

I know you both long for and run from love.

I know you can’t keep promises.

I know you love to run away.

I know you want to be independent.

I know you want to be successful.

I know you love fries.

I know you’re lost.

but I don’t know you.

I don’t know how you think.

I don’t know what makes you happy,

or sad, or mad, or confused.

I don’t know your reasons for your actions.

I don’t know why you run from good things.

I don’t know why you cling to empty things.

I don’t know your dreams for the future.

I don’t know your demons from the past.

I used to think I knew you

that you let me see who you were

but I don’t think you ever showed

or told me anything about you so

I don’t understand why I miss you

when I don’t think I even ever knew you.

[peachyjude]

we’re at the top of it all, and you’re staring out at the horizon, your silhouette melting against the blazing sky. your arms are thrown out like you’re ready to fly. the next ten thousand years is in your smile; the winds are reckless and i have never wanted more to be alive, awake, undone. we’re at the top of it all. we’ve done it.

zenith, e.t.

[jennitaals]

Sunday, December 20, 2015

It’s Sunday again. Sundays are always, always, always, harder and more painful. I couldn’t stop crying when I woke up this morning. I miss him oh soooooooo, very, very, very, dearly. I would honestly, seriously, do and give anything and everything to be able to spend Sundays with him again. I’ve been seeing pictures of people at Winterhaven and Zoo Lights. I remember when we would go together. I would honestly, seriously, do and give anything and everything to be able to go with him again. Honestly, I know I’m given up on, forgotten about, and probably even replaced by now. I just hope he’s happy, smiling, safe, and warm. He means the whole entire absolute world to me and I will never, ever, give up on us. I love him and miss him oh soooooooo, very, very, very, much... :’(