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[tlawaniokojie]

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[obviouslyzain-blog]

Random Thoughts #15

It's 12:22am and I can't sleep. I don't know whether it's through my discomfort or whether it's because I'm thinking too much. I keep thinking about the night I told my mum about how I was feeling and how she said that she thought I was happy. That's how I come across to people who see me regularly. However my auntie, who I hadn't seen for a while, noticed a difference in me. But people who see me regularly don't notice a difference. It's like hair growth; every day, your hair grows slightly longer, but the people you see on a day-to-day basis don't realise how long it gets. However, someone you haven't seen for a year will tell you straight away that your hair is long. I think it's crazy that people see me as a normal, mindless kid. But there's a lot more than meets the eye. Another thing that I've wanted to mention is how crazy our world is. I don't like it. All the shootings, terrorism, racism, discrimination. It's all horrible. It could change if people were hair simply nice to one another but we all know that that will never happen. It's just the reality of it. Everyone could try but some people can't help it, that's how it is. There's the ones with mental issues or the ones with bad-backgrounds who are closed minded through no fault of their own and know no better than violence. There's also those who have beliefs, as extreme as they are, who is who to tell others what they can and can't believe? This world is crazy and that's all there is to it. Another thing, school is just becoming a burden right now. I've had 5 days off and I have to go back tomorrow. I have to go back to 2 and a half assessments, only one and a half of which actually matter. It's a half because I've already done half of it last week. It just gets boring. It'll be heat-waves soon hopefully and I don't want to be stuck indoors at school. I want to actually feel productive and learn new things on my skateboard or go out filling and experiencing new things to them go and edit them together nicely (well, atleast learn and practise how to do that). Anyways, goodnight.

[fire-andtthe-flood]

I like the way you laugh. Whether it's your silent laugh or your really loud laugh. You'd always make me laugh with you. I like the way you smile. It may seem small and insignificant to others, but never to me. It brightens up my day easily. I like the way you listen. You would listen to me ramble, about my day or random topics. Even if I get distracted talking or listen to you. I like the way you think. You keep saying I'm the genius, but you're the genius to be honest. I fall in love more hearing your thoughts. I like the way you hug me. It's such a casual thing. It's so normal. but I still have chills running down my spine every time you bury your face into the crook of my neck. I like the way you kiss me. Be it a peck on the cheek or a passionate kiss. I can feel the love when your lips are on mine. I like the way you make me feel. I feel safe in your arms. I feel at home, at peace. I feel how protective you are of me. But most of all I love the way you love me.

me

[jeribunny]

LIX: indifferent

I can’t sleep yet again. I think it’s because I disrupted my daily caffeine intake time because for a few days I did not drink an energy drink in the morning and on Saturday night I ended up drinking really strong coffee which kept me awake all night so I ended up not sleeping until almost 5am. Then I didn’t take any energy drinks on Sunday either and tried going back to drinking an energy drink on Monday morning which I then realized how out of wack my energy levels were because even though I drank an energy drink in the morning I was still exhausted throughout the day and the energy drink didn’t even take into effect at all. Leaving me utterly drained of energy by the time I finished my workout which I usually do towards the end of the day. I’m trying to situate my body back to it’s daily caffeine intake time just so I can feel those bursts of energy throughout the day which was doing great in my routines.

You know it’s kind of funny because I feel like my mind automatically switched back into indifference. It’s like the state of mind in which I didn’t really need anyone and I’m perfectly fine with going places and participating in activities alone. I actually kind of prefer it this way. Needless to say, I wouldn’t mind having company along with me, I enjoy it but always having company just isn’t my style. Unless it’s someone I’m interested in of course. I’ve always been that kind of person. I don’t necessarily need numerous close friends, I would rather be more comfortable having just one person beside me to hold it down with. It only really takes one person for me to be satisfied anyway and I really believe that my heart only has the capacity to fully care and show affection to one person that isn’t family. I mean in the context of more dramatic measures. I naturally care about everyone’s well-being just because I don’t wish any ills or hardships upon anyone but it never goes past anything on a personal, intimate level.

Despite all of that, at this point in my life I am completely self indulgent. Which in itself might sound bad but is in fact good. I don’t have to rely on people, I can just get whatever I want for myself which also relieves people of my own wants and needs.and allows them to think more about themselves. However I know that I will always put myself before anyone else. Sounds selfish, I know but I think of it this way: I have to work on a better me before anything else because ultimately it is my life and I can’t just go around pleasing everyone while losing sight of who I am.

I should really go to sleep now. It’s almost 1am and I have class in a few hours plus work at night. Well, good night universe.

[dlramen]

I'm going to bed. A little because I probably should, a little because I'm bored,and a little because no-music-no-life-to-live told me to.

[kawaiihoneybearbunny-blog]

IX: indifferent

I can't sleep yet again. I think it's because I disrupted my daily caffeine intake time because for a few days I did not drink an energy drink in the morning and on Saturday night I ended up drinking really strong coffee which kept me awake all night so I ended up not sleeping until almost 5am. Then I didn't take any energy drinks on Sunday either and tried going back to drinking an energy drink on Monday morning which I then realized how out of wack my energy levels were because even though I drank an energy drink in the morning I was still exhausted throughout the day and the energy drink didn't even take into effect at all. Leaving me utterly drained of energy by the time I finished my workout which I usually do towards the end of the day. I'm trying to situate my body back to it's daily caffeine intake time just so I can feel those bursts of energy throughout the day which was doing great in my routines.

You know it's kind of funny because I feel like my mind automatically switched back into indifference. It's like the state of mind in which I didn't really need anyone and I'm perfectly fine with going places and participating in activities alone. I actually kind of prefer it this way. Needless to say, I wouldn't mind having company along with me, I enjoy it but always having company just isn't my style. Unless it's someone I'm interested in of course. I've always been that kind of person. I don't necessarily need numerous close friends, I would rather be more comfortable having just one person beside me to hold it down with. It only really takes one person for me to be satisfied anyway and I really believe that my heart only has the capacity to fully care and show affection to one person that isn't family. I mean in the context of more dramatic measures. I naturally care about everyone's well-being just because I don't wish any ills or hardships upon anyone but it never goes past anything on a personal, intimate level.

Despite all of that, at this point in my life I am completely self indulgent. Which in itself might sound bad but is in fact good. I don't have to rely on people, I can just get whatever I want for myself which also relieves people of my own wants and needs.and allows them to think more about themselves. However I know that I will always put myself before anyone else. Sounds selfish, I know but I think of it this way: I have to work on a better me before anything else because ultimately it is my life and I can't just go around pleasing everyone while losing sight of who I am.

I should really go to sleep now. It's almost 1am and I have class in a few hours plus work at night. Well, good night universe.