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[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #00 ]

Thought you’ve seen the last of me, huh?

Babe, it’s a beautiful morning to be cramped up inside the house.

You. Garden. Now.

[06252014]

[ an envelope was laid down on the ground, holding a letter that was handwritten and somewhat scribbled towards the end for some reason, judging by the lazy strokes of the pen. it was right beside her heels, between Kyungsoo’s boots and Jungsoo’s sneakers on the shoe rack downstairs. ] [ l e t t e r ]

Hi.

I know we’ve from being argumentative to being declarative of our feelings these days; we settled down from being an exclamation point of angst than an exclamation point of happines trailed by an ellipsis and ended with a question mark towards our happy ending. I felt like our punctuation marks have been spot on from the beginning and our grammar together has been improved ever since.

When we went on different paths (and actually followed the rule strictly not to contact each other unless it was a life or death situation), we felt free.

We were both liberated from our old selves and out to discover a different side to things, not right away. Certainly not right away. It took a long time. It did, didn’t it? That’s what we wanted, right? A new perspective? We got them.

We both got what we deserved, even though we didn’t get each other back then.

We learned to love again, but in different ways and in different people, in different circumstances.

I love the fact that we’ve managed to keep the flame alive, even after more than a decade. This is our 13th year as friends, supposedly. Did you know that? Would you have remembered? I took note of the date too much, I guess. I wanted to celebrate it with you since we missed out on a lot of celebrations together. I guess 13 is also our lucky number, because we aren’t just friends now. Not “just friends” either. I think we’ve surpassed our old selves. There are enough Sorry’s in our last book. This one- This one is full of Thank You’s.

It’s day 366 of our 365-page book. This is a loose paper. It’s day 1 all over again. And it’s not in the same book, you see. It’s a new leaf, perhaps written a little too late.

12 years. It’s not so bad, is it? A lot has changed.

You’re not Taeyeon. And I’m not Kyungsoo.

You’re Taeyeon + 12 years XP and I’m Kyungsoo + 12 years XP complete with a Jungsoo tailing at level 3 going on 4, but you and me– We’re both at the top level now. Same character, but with upgraded stuff.

Today’s page 1 again, as I’ve said. It’s funny, huh? How we got things in order even if we knew there were missing elements. We tried to fill in each other’s gaps and felt whole again even without each other.

But in reality, I could always be whole without you. I could survive without you, if we haven’t crossed paths again. But I love you so so so much, and I’ve been a fool not to show that enough 12-13 years ago. And nw, I just choose to be with you.

I just choose to be whole with you.

I choose you today, Taeyeon.

I’d choose you tomorrow, Taeyeon.

And I’d choose you everyday..

..because we’re starting over, and I’m making a book that I can refill with pages over and over again this time. One that doesn’t have to have a last page marked at 365.

It’s an open-ended book, that’s bound to be a good one. It’s (hard)bound to be a happy one.

[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #01 ]

Last one! Look at the shoe rack, please. It’s right by the door.

[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #02 ]

Ooh. #02. We’re close. Warm. Okay.. Just go to the last foot of the staircase. I dropped it there. I ran out of riddles and demands, okay?

[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #03 ]

Me and Jungsoo are hungry. Grab some bread, please. I mean it. The note’s on top of the oven. It’s covered in a patterned cloth, in case you don’t find it easily.

[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #04 ]

Sit Part II. Find another seat in the house. This one’s comfy. Soft and comfy (in the living room.)

[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #05 ]

Sit.

But check your seat, please.

[06252014]

Guide to [ n o t e #06 ]

This is going to be dumb but.. Just look to the other side of the wall, about a few degrees South. I’m serious. I’m not joking. This one isn’t even a riddle or a lame pick-up line.