#19.4.19

[faithinthemoment]

Here's a song that Suede haven't played live too often. I think it was the first time they played it on this April UK tour too. It's 'Mistress' and here it's just Brett and Richard, but that means you can hear these delicate words even better. It was sweaty at Albert Hall and we all needed to chill out for a bit and catch our breath. We did that, while ruminating over past lovers. Listen...

[devonjwerkheiser]

[godsnameisjoy]

Calming the Sea

Date : 19 April 2019

Duration : 14 minutes at bedtime.

Depth :

It sure didn’t feel like 14 minutes. It felt like a duration close to 25 minutes. Those 14 minutes sure have an eternal space in my head, as I write this.

The quality of the session was the same as other recent sessions. Suspended breaths and it’s corresponding mind space made an early appearance in the session. Thereafter, the deep subconscious tried to do its number on me. After the struggle to stay with the deep subconscious, I stopped meditating. At this point, I felt like as if I was close to completing the first 25 minutes.

The struggle with staying with the deep subconscious, lasts only as long as my meditation muscle’s strength. The strength to stay has improved over the weeks but it obviously isn’t enough.

Sometimes I feel that the notion I have regarding the quality of all the hours prior to a night time meditation session, is a silly notion I entertain. It’s possible that the solution that I have come up with, is right but the notion is still wrong. So what am I talking about ?

I feel strongly that the quality of my daytime thoughts influences the night time meditation session. Like last night. The day was somewhat distant from the routine. The evening was even further removed from my regular evenings. I am eager to believe that this shrunk my session duration.

What if I am wrong ? What if I found similar shrinking and expanding durations even after I set a mental habit of ‘meditating all the time’ ? Then, it wouldn’t be about the daytime thoughts. It’ll be about the way our minds work, independent of what we are doing with our minds.

Like the waves and currents of the sea, what if our mind express a subtle yet different mood each day ? Some days for no apparent reason allowing us to dive deep into a long well sustained meditation and on some other days refusing to calm beyond a point.

[devonjwerkheiser]

[devonjwerkheiser]

[devonjwerkheiser]

[willnotcannotbesilenced]

A note to Etown college students who give a damn.

The End Intolerance 19.4.19 event is THIS FRIDAY in the BSC from 6am on Friday to 1am on Saturday.  This is a nonviolent sit-in to protest the "bias-related" and hate incidents that have occurred on campus.  Please consider attending the event, as your schedule allows, to show the campus that we will not tolerate hate.  You can brings signs with messages of love and peace to raise awareness of the issues.

P.s. There have now been 21 incidents, no longer just 19.