#1:09pm

[ajyal-azez]

في هذه اللحظة أعتزل العالم أجمع وأحتضن الموسيقى.

[ajyal-azez]

بمعية عيّنيك أسافر، لمدن لم تطئ أرجلي عليها

ولشاطئ يجمعنا، ولصوت نورس البحر يطرب مسمعنا.

[nevergetmyfill]

I choose to be hungry so I don’t have to feel anything else 

[onisrn]

O👏 K👏 LISTEN 👏 HERE 👏

Becoming friends with him (probably)

WON'T 👏 END 👏 WELL 👏👏👏

Why, you ask?

Well.

(((History could repeat itself )))

You could become friends with him, talk on WhatsApp etc like you want

But then

You may start to think he likes you (¿¿¿¿¿) or sth. Like in Elixir.

Or

He may just

Like

Stop

Talking to you as much

OR SOMETHING

AND THEN

your insecure a will get all

Sad

And think he's ignoring you

(idk like eman)

And that may even be the case 🤷

So then

YOU 👏 GON👏 GET 👏 SAD👏

And ultimately probably stop talking to him

And feel

Inferior

(like you haven't felt inferior enough in elixir bc of him (see: "Yaar Eman ab mai kia kahun" ~ Diary#4))

And that's how, my friend,

IT 👏 WON'T 👏 END 👏 WELL 👏

(probably)

[bl-oom]

me: i wanna die

somebody who heard me very clearly: what?

me: [clears throat]

me: [adjusts shirt]

me: [folds arms]

me: i wanna die

[substantial-emotion]

I won't let you have the power to destroy me anymore.. I can't

[rewindbuttongal-blog]

5/5/16

Overnight, you made a decision that would steer you into the right path. The feeling from discouragement and comparison has dispersed. It’s safe to say that after transcripts and financial aid are transferred, you will officially be one step closer to making dreams into reality.

See, things may not go as originally planned, but it’s best to keep and open mind/heart and go with the flow. You will get there. Trust me.

[rejectedtransfers]

today has been the strange aftermath of avoidance of suicide and confrontation of feelings