#1ker

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Happy Birthday, My Love! Wish You all the health, strength, happiness and joy in the world. I love You endlessly…

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I love Iker

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Iker Casillas at the official presentation of FC Porto at Dragao Stadium on July 31, 2017.

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demolition

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IKER - UCL ‘18-19 - ⅛ - 1st Leg - Roma vs. FC Porto - 12/02/19 - post-match interview

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If anyone still visits this blog, do send messages. I’ll do a better job answering them from now on. I could seriously use distraction and just talk about anything, really. Because frankly, every day I feel like I’m on the verge of losing my shit. I’m tremendously happy that Iker is doing well and thank the Universe every day for looking out for him but it still is so damn difficult to get my head around the fact that the heart attack even happened in the first place. And now the news about Sara. Everything just seems so surreal. I march on and so should everyone but it feels like I’m way out of my comfort zone and will never get back in again. The world is no longer a safe place. It always seemed so, even when terrible things were happening I still thought that nothing bad would ever dare touch Iker. And now I know it’s not like that. My whole mindset has been turned upside down. And I need time to accept that and learn to live in this new reality. And this is just me. I can’t even begin to imagine the amount of adjusting Iker has to deal with, him being so sure that he would play at least until he’s 40 and loving his craft as much as he does. All of it pains me on a daily basis and I just wish I could take some of Iker’s anger and hurt, or better yet, all of it. But again, he has to go through this process on his own. I’m sure he will only get stronger as a person and as the true man that he is. I’m sure Sara will win the battle she faces and I sure wish her well. Because each of us has only one option, which is living our lives, enjoying and treasuring it, whatever obstacles thrown our way.

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Doubt anyone remembers me. Still I want to get something off my chest. What happened to Iker is beyond my understanding. A heart attack rarely comes out of the blue, there usually is a heart desease developing prior to it. If there was, Iker and the medical staff would know, given that he has always been serious about his health and work ethic. I can’t get my head around it all. It still feels like it could not happen and I’m just dreaming. Still, I feel so very happy and relieved Iker received the help he needed exactly when he needed it. Nothing is more important to me than his health and well-being. I love him so much. I don’t know what happens next career-wise, too early to talk about that. For now, I just want Iker to rest and be as attentive to his emotional and physical state as possible.

As for giffing, I’m not able to do it now because of many reasons but I will post everything I’ve missed eventually. Especially now that there is a pause in Iker’s schedule plus the summer break around the corner for Cris, I’m sure I’ll have time to make it up for anyone still counting on me. Thanks.

Also you might remember me saying I changed my mind about some people I criticized. Not one of us likes admitting our mistakes and nor do I but in this case, I’m glad I’ve been mistaken, especially now. The list of people I’ve been wrong about now includes Sara. I am sorry for the bad stuff I’ve written here. And I’m sincerely glad I wasn’t right about her.

Well, that’s all I wanted to say. Let us all hope scares like this won’t happen again and our loved ones will be healthy. Let’s be kinder to each other and more positive about each day we’re given. If anyone wants to talk, do send messages, I could use a distraction in times like this.

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IKER - UCL ‘18-19 - ⅛ - 1st Leg - Roma vs. FC Porto - 12/02/19