#2-12-16

[365-thoughts-daily-blog]

I should've screamed at you until I lost my voice, but for some reason I could only let out a whisper that I don't even know if you heard.

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[earthtoshells]

my day was so nice

[clockworkcreatures]

Today we fought in the park and it was lit! A1 time. Also driving my car with him in it is super stressful. There was grass everywhere and now it's all in my car. It's a mess and I can't deal. There was also some making out after the fight but that usually happens.

[luckyleolion]

So I think Pisces boy scout... is kinda good looking.....

[ifwethinkandwishandhopeandpray]

VRIRSA

California Department of Public Health’s “Vital Records Image Redaction and Statewide Access” program. This allows staff to access a single State database for requesting automatically redacted informational-only copies of birth records from 1985-present and death records from 1996-present. These certificates show black redaction boxes across any signatures or social security numbers.

https://www.vrirsa.cdph.ca.gov/Default.aspx?ReturnUrl=%2f

http://leginfo.legislature.ca.gov/faces/codes_displaySection.xhtml?lawCode=HSC§ionNum=103525.5

[gayliegirlfempower-blog]

Julia I’ve decided that I really like Julia so far. Forget about her promiscuity, she’s found a way to feel in control and somewhat powerful with and through her sexuality. I would hope I could and would find a way in her world if I were there. She’s strong and vulnerable at the same time. She’s sharp and cunning. She has learned how to navigate the world she finds herself in. She uses her sexuality to feel powerful and rebellious and also to feel nurtured and nurturing. Did you notice how once again in this dark world of shadows and sterility, a female brings us light and alongside nature? Julia is our Clarisse. She is light and nature and brings Winston into a whole new world that he hadn’t ever experienced or thought possible. I just love her. She’s a hero in my book. 💜

[skiessoundsoft-blog]

reading listening notes (3) 2/12

1. Cvetkovich, Ann. “Introduction.” An Archive of Feeling: Trauma, Sexuality, and Lesbian Public Cultures. Duke U.P.: Durham, 2008. Print. “This book implicitly juxaposes cultural production and therapy, not in order to dismiss the latter but in order to expand the category of the therapeutic beyond the confines of the narrowly medicalized or privatized encounter between clinical professional and client” (10). 2. Jones, Josh. “See the Curious Score for John Cage’s ‘Silent’ Zen Composition 4’33”.” Open Culture: The Best cultural & educational media on the web. Open Culture, 2 Oct. 2013. Web. 12 Feb 2016. “In the interview below, for example, Cage does make an important distinction between ‘music’ and ‘sound.’ He favors the latter for its chance, impersonal qualities, but also, importantly, because it is neither analytical nor emotional.” 3. Is space noisesound? 4. While there were parts of Cvetkovich’s “Introduction,” that I found useful, I think that any conversation about trauma that doesn’t center colonization and racism is shortcoming. I also want to push back against the hegemonic representation of femmes as those who want to get fucked, and butches as unable to be emotionally vulnerable—and furthermore these two identities as a binary against themselves (12). I found the Cage piece to be interesting, and I think my final analysis of 4’33” is that Cage is creating space, which prompted my question is space noisesound? What I want to know, as well, is how Cage would’ve performed this piece, as I found the way William Marx performed the piece to be slightly embellished, specifically the way he flicked his wrist when he turned the timer on and off. I think the more casual that one performs this piece the easier the message is to be, and I found myself distracted by his coat tails. After seven or so minutes of silence, when the performance was done I was struck by how loud the audience sounded when applauding and the immediate disjoint between the two. Did Cage consider the audience, as well, to become part of the piece and bring in the only noisesound that we hear?

[is-fading-blog]

I studied for the wrong test. It was open note and half the questions I copied my friend's bad notes. One question was on the only article I didn't read. Shit. I misread his email. Ah. Me.

I'm slowly giving up vices to save money. But I'm not doing it gracefully.