#2013witchblrreunion

[khal-winchester]

So....

What have y'all been up to?

I've done a bunch of fuck all that amounted to absolutely nothing and, as of the past 5 or 6 years, had a major change of life. And now I'm starting my life over. But I'm so happy. Thankfully cured of my delusions that everyone is always out to get me (which would have been nice to know about having in 2013, but I know now so yay). Still practicing witchcraft (though it is much better sans internet). Finished my degree in education and dev psych. And then ended up disabled due to multiple psychiatric disorders. What about y'all?

[syristones]

Life can be so weird. Growing can be so weird. Building yourself up again can be so weird.

Learning to trust yourself and your intuition after having it destroyed can be so weird.

I'm thankful I can still see the beauty and hope in life despite it all.

Shout out to younger me for never losing their hope. 🫂🌻💗

[hellboundwitch]

who the fuck is hellboundwitch?

Five years have gone by since I was last here, and there are so many new faces here! Reasonably, y'all probably don't know who I am, so allow me to introduce myself so you know what you're getting into and can run away before it's too late. Also there have been some changes, so there are some new things in here even if you do remember me!

I'm Jasmine! Right now I'm 38 years old, my pronouns are they/she. I was too scared to tell y'all that back in the day because I had a toxic friend who hated people with multiple pronouns and so I was hiding that part of myself so I wouldn't be harassed. Luckily they're not in my life anymore, and I'm no longer afraid of them. I'm still in the big TX but I've moved since the last time I was here. I also thought I was a lesbian back then but it turns out I am actually bi for real for real, and I have a partner I'm very happy with.

Tarot is still one of my greatest loves, but I don't do as many readings these days as I used to. Talking about tarot is still so fun for me, and I still have too many decks (although I buy new ones way less frequently than I used to). Actually, most of my decks are in storage right now! Like in a storage building, not even in my house. It makes me feel kind of itchy being so far from them but I wouldn't have been able to live like this back in 2020. I DID get way more into historical decks than I was before when y'all weren't looking. Honestly if you're reading this, wish me luck, I can't find my favourite Besancon and I feel real torn up about it. Despite having hundreds of decks still, I'm probably going to pick up a Waite Colman Smith if I need to do a reading. The 500 Decks to Only Reading With the WCS Pipeline IS real, unfortunately.

Most people who talk to me these days have noticed that a lot of my attention has gone to astrology. I've always been a big astrology fan but over the past years I've been taking my astrology education more seriously. I don't know if I'll ever be good enough at it (or understand it enough) to be a Professional Astrologer, but I have so much fun talking about it and teaching what I know. And trying fun things with it, like looking at people's charts through a magical lens, doing synastry, and lately I've been learning horary astrology. (If you're curious, my astrological interests are largely based in the Western tropical zodiac -- I'm a Whole Signs girlie all the way -- and Chinese astrology like Purple Star Astrology and Bazi, but I don't feel limited to stay in those bounds whenever I find new cool stuff to learn or talk about)

I mentioned that my practice is much more spirit focused than it used to be. I don't really talk about the deities I work with very easily, because people have been incredibly weird about it. But there are non-deity spirits I work with as well that I'd like to talk about.

This has resulted in me doing fewer spells these days, because instead of going to cast a spell, I'll be talking to a spirit about something I want and then THEY do it. And I love that! But I'm missing doing more active magic and I'm hoping now that things are settling down in my life, I'll be able to get back into it more often. Mostly I've just been doing spellwork on behalf of my friends who ask for it, so it would be nice to do more for me again. I WAS doing some really cool stuff with @grimoire-of-geekery for awhile but I had to drop everything once my life got too hectic and sick to keep up 😔

My magical practice is still split into basically three categories: part of it is traditional witchcraft, part of it is hoodoo/conjure/rootwork, and part of it is just me having fun. As I do!

This is long because I still talk too much, so I'll stop, but if there's anything you're curious about just lemme know :'))

[stagkingswife]

It’s so cool to have these people who I used to look up to as role models a decade ago come back to the community. It’s especially cool because they feel much more like peers to me than they used to, I have grown so much in my practice and become so much more confident in myself than I was a decade ago.

[althara]

Logged on to tumblr today and actually had to double check what year it was

[afniel]

Oh man there's a tag for this? I'm down, let's go. I don't even know if anybody remembers me but I was there, Gandalf, etc. etc. I was just there as lavender-lapin or lunar-lavender, but if you remember a Lunar who was really into moths and lavender and doing magic with coffeeshop ingredients, that's me! Was me. Probably not the current me. It'll make sense in a moment.

So in 2013 I was a witch and pagan who was working at Starbucks and I had a girlfriend. I was pretty sure I was neurotypical. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I had a shockingly clear, easy to understand ability to godphone. I was reasonably certain I was female. I didn't think of myself as disabled.

So, uhhhh.

It's 2026. I'm still pagan and a witch, I guess? Though I couldn't tell you the last time I did something intentionally witchy or pagan. The beliefs are there, sort of, but part of me is also very skeptical these days. I'm too disabled to work. I have the same partner, but they're entirely agender. I've been diagnosed with ADHD and treated with medication for it, and I'm quite positive I'm autistic. I'm also quite certain that I have DID/OSDD and I can only imagine that probably made it very easy to 'talk to spirits' in certain cases. I'm trans masculine, I've been on testosterone for nine years, and my actual gender is a dumpster fire of different labels and feelings. I'm posting from in bed, because it's the easiest place to be right now.

I'm not even sure I'm the same person as I was in 2013. As in, not a metaphor, I may have entirely swapped to a different host alter since then. It's hard to tell. If you read my blog then and compared it to now, it's like seeing two entirely different people writing. I don't feel that Lunar was who Nevi is now. I think she might not be around at this point and it's all me now. The part where I don't remember much at all from that era is kind of supporting evidence for it, but then again, it's hard to say because I was on a lot of medication at the time that was scrambling my brain pretty badly. I'm a lot better on that front now and all the brain scramble is fully just my own.

But I'm actually doing really well. I'm still into pretty esoteric stuff, it's just more identity than practice now. I've gotten into a (very small, very old) fandom. My partner and I moved away and then back to almost the same place as then, just this time it's in a house that we own. Still disabled, same things as always. I'm not even sure what to report as far as things being new or different, because most of it would not be interesting to an onlooker. We've got three different cats now, and they're great, though I miss my old one still. I haven't even tried to work in about a decade because it's just not feasible with my body being the way it is.

I like where I've ended up. I'm a whole lot more stable than I've ever been, though it sounds from the DID/OSDD that I'd be less, but it's always been there. I can just recognize and manage it now. I like who I am. I've become someone I enjoy being. It's not so bad to be 42 and in a decent place.

I still, if I feel the need, work with the same spirit crew as I did back then. I don't mind mentioning Hermes. Still my home boy. Still the Boss Man.

I don't think I can mention the Demon Lady anymore in public by name. The atmosphere has really changed, which sucks, but it is what it is. I get it. I always tried really hard to not shit in my own backyard with my practice with her, but there are enough people who have that it doesn't matter if I did or not. There's no being "one of the good ones" anymore I don't think, so I just stay silent. But she's still with me. I'm still of her. That doesn't change, with or without being performatively pagan.

There was a while that I had an office job and got close with Djehuty, which was cool. I like him a lot to this day.

Anyway, hello to everyone who was around for those days in the weird goddamn trenches! I think we were kind of all dealing with a lot of undiagnosed shit, huh. It's the kind of era that I remember with an intensely bizarre fondness that I know for a fact means it was actually not good for me, and I'm sure I'm not the only one. I hope we're all doing better.

[khal-winchester]

Should we make a 2013WitchblrReunion tag and just have a class reunion? It hasn't quite been 20 years for me yet. But I have a GED so this might be as close to a high school reunion as I'll get.

@yorubaby @hellboundwitch @stagkingswife @asksecularwitch idk who else. I never had a social life.

[khal-winchester]

I feel like I cheated the system on @hellboundwitch's vow to come back if I did. Because, like, I really just had to reopen this url to stop people from spreading lies on my behalf, not for the witchcraft. But a deal is a deal.