these demons are clever

Khal, I guess (they/them) | I am very ugly and need to go into an ugly home. I follow as furfirebones but I don't actually use that blog. Hearth/Hedge witch blog at @hellishwork. You're supposed to eat the banana.

[khal-winchester]

My name is Khal. Please don't call me Emma. I have not used the name Emma in 10 years. I am 36, but the memory you have of me may be 24. I was some unlucky dude on witchblr in 2013-2014. I use they/them and she/her pronouns. I am a practitioner of mostly non-witchcraft type magic who chooses to self-identify as a witch. This is a sideblog.

Pertinent Information:

Autistic + Mentally Ill

I do still use the term "Hearth Witch" on occasion, but I mostly consider myself a practitioner of heirloom/familial traditional magic with a side of traditional witchcraft.

I never had a cult. I had some goofballs in my inbox on anon and I laughed them off as a joke until it become an inside joke that outgrew me. And some weirdos took it seriously. I should have responded to it in a different way, but I didn't. But I never had a cult.

I know there has been a lot said about me since 2013 that has come from an unreliable narrator (a person that I had a difficult social connection with who liked to act like I was being horrible and unreasonable and call me a cunt [to other people] when I tried to reinforce boundaries with them). I know about some of what was said. I won't assume I know about all of it. If you heard something from them, it's probably not true. But, if you have questions about it, I am happy to answer them to the best of my ability.

I unearthed this blog specifically because someone was trying to use old beef with me against someone else. I decided to keep it because I don't want to allow anyone else the opportunity to speak for me and to reconnect with the community.

This is not my only witchcraft blog. I never left the witchcraft community. I continued running shops, websites, blogs, etc. and making resources in a much less social capacity but (thankfully) never had the same experience that I had in 2013 witchblr.

I have multiple witchcraft blogs. I mostly make quippy shitposts on this one. The one most focused on "old Khal" type things is @hellishwork (which I am using to try to bring spirituality and my witchcraft back into the same frame and to be more active in the former). If you would like my main witchcraft blog feel free to ask.

[patchworkbearss]

Nonbinary is not girl lite and I'll kill you actually

[kaizsche]

The sun sets, and she appears.

[snedic]

Empathy: I feel you

Sympathy: I feel for you

Lycanthropy: I feel awoo

[3s-ara-deactivated20230320]

[starcut-sand]

the thing about Tangled is that this is a story geared towards little girls (even if it's "fun for the whole family," it's a disney princess movie, it's geared towards little girls), and it says, "here is a girl who is naive and doesn't know anything about the 'Real World' or how to navigate it safely and correctly. now pay close attention: the good guys are the ones who help her grow and explore new things while still respecting her own perspective and feelings, not making her feel stupid. the bad guys are the ones who tell her that she is too weak/immature/naive to do the things she wants to do, because she is fragile and needs protecting." and I watched this when I was nine years old and it resonated deep in a part of me that I couldn't articulate with words yet.

[i-am-the-oyster]

[estrogenesis-vaporeongelion]

his stewardship of the elf stones is secondary

[hellishwork]

I think I was meant to be back in this space and back in these shoes. I have reclaimed a thousand pieces of myself in a thousand ways, but coming back to this specific space, carrying this specific name, letting myself be vulnerable in ways I wouldn't have before. I think I was meant to reconnect with people who remind me of who I used to be and how deeply spiritual my practice used to be.

I changed a lot out of necessity, but I think I lost a lot too in the focus on academics and research. I feel like I've been given an opportunity to come back home to myself.

[khal-winchester]

My new schizospectrum things appear to be doorbells and the pinging of a check engine light. Which is fine. I can live with that.

[khal-winchester]

I hate watching somebody build a social media brand when I know they're getting away with a pattern of racism and supporting racism behind the scenes but they're just careful not to let it slip in public. It irks me to my core.

[khal-winchester]

One of the worst things about the Internet is that is allowed school bullies to live forever as the Cringe Police instead of just being the assholes no one likes talking to at work.

[yorubaby]

Your allyship to BIPOC means absolutely nothing if you harass, bully, ignore, and silence those same people online btw.

You cannot call yourself an ally to BIPOC while simultaneously treating BIPOC like shit.

That's not how that works, and you're just performing allyship to make yourself feel and look good.

[khal-winchester]

The unfortunate fact in parts of the witchcraft and pagan community though is that not everyone who claims to stand for social justice or equity or decolonization is doing so in good faith. Not everyone is interested in allyship to BIPOC as much as they are furthering their own agenda and centering their own voice. And it's not always immediately evident who is interested in allyship and who is interested in co-opting these movements to uplift themselves on the backs of BIPOC by centering their own voices and experiences.

[khal-winchester]

I don't have enemies on the internet. I have people on a block list. Having enemies on the Internet is wildly unnecessary.

[khal-winchester]

Having enemies on the Internet is entirely optional. You have to choose to do that. Actively.

[khal-winchester]

I love when I add a bunch of racists and nationalist witches and pagans to my block list and my follower count stays the same. Nice.

[khal-winchester]

I'm so fucking glad I accidentally slept until noon today. I forgot that tomorrow is Noise Day.

[khal-winchester]

I don't have enemies on the internet. I have people on a block list. Having enemies on the Internet is wildly unnecessary.

[khal-winchester]

Those big bad racist movements didn't always come out guns blazing with the racism. A lot of them had their roots in pastoral romanticism, rural romanticism and pushes to return to traditional ways, traditional skills, traditional language, and such. It was a rewriting of history, a mythologizing of history before it was ever an outright claim of superiority. It was a "romantic nationalism" before it was violent nationalism. So yeah...I think about that a lot in my adventures through the witchcraft and pagan communities. It helps...with discernment and stuff.