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2014-01-18

Watching the Sun Set

Gazing at the sun setting slowly into the earth, I felt a pang of something sad lurking deep into my chest yet I was content with the sight before me. I found the vibrant red, rich as the sun itself but what had me thinking was how dark it was, and how it leached across the sky, almost like a blanket. It was the suns leftover, the remains of something greater but I had thought the purple mixing with a bright glowing red to be more greater than the sun I had faced every day.

The sadness was surprising, because I felt like I was longing after being something great, yet I was not even the dark glowing red, but a dark pale blue-grey descending into black. Even the stars were wary of my presence.

Happy-sadness, it was an endless spiral of mingling emotions that intertwined inside me like how the sun clung to the red glowing remains of what it had left. And just like that, I was clinging. I was clinging to the sunset, the idea of being something, and the idea behind being something, or being the best self i could possibly be was a bright happiness, much brighter than the sun and glow of the red remains combined, yet the presence of sadness was tight in my chest and breathing was something I needed to focus on rather than dreams at the moment.

So as the sky began to darken, I stood there waiting for the sun to fully set. Something so simple had constructed its own beauty and I was left standing there in awe, because one day I would be if not the sun, the glowing red for someone to appreciate, to call beautiful and mean it.

For someone to look up to and think about being the best them they could be, and the idea of that left me warm like the sun had on a warm spring day.

C.I

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