#2015life

[adrdelights]

He used to be mine

We met when we were both still in high school. We became best friends. We did things together like a normal teenage girls and boys will do. We helped each other, a lot - I helped him with all the things needed for the girl he liked while he helped me with all the annoying ideas I could come up with. We were there for each other. Like brothers and sisters, supposedly.

College came, we took different paths. I, in Nursing and him, in Engineering. Months passed and obviously, freshmen were adjusting in the university life. Btw, we both got in the same university in Manila. We were both busy because of the requirements. It's super craaazy.

Amidst being in college, he never forgot me as his best friend. We met up, shared our other experiences in the college we're in, ate ice cream (lots of them) and he also met my newly found friends. Then before we part ways, we hugged. Time stopped when our bodies exchanged heat for just mere seconds. And for me, that felt good. It felt like I am seeing him in a new perspective, in a new shade of color. Maybe, I am too comfortable beside him. Maybe, I trust him so much. Or maybe... *fireworks*

Time passed by so fast, one thing led to the other then *boom*, we were together. We loved each other like no one else does. We gave all the time and communication we needed. We sacrificed some of the friendships we had with the other girls and boys because we're both the jealous type. I really loved him too much that it consumes me alive. Then, things get a little rough. We weren't doing anything to make it work. So, I chose to let go. I chose the hardest part because I wanted him to grow. I wanted both of us to grow. I wanted him to have the time of his life. I wanted him to do things without asking my permission or without asking anyone's permission. Plainly, I wanted him to be happy. Maybe not with me but at least, he's happy.

Now... all I can do is remember him;

I remember him, because he was my first love.

I remember him, because he has those cute smiles that made my heart skipped a beat.

I remember him, because he was the first guy that loved all my flaws and insecurities.

I remember him in a way that only my heart will know; in a way that only I will know. Even if, he doesn't remember me in that way any more.

[anne-marie-xx]

2015 siguro yung taon na pinaka-challenging para saken. Hindi ko alam kung paano pa ako mabubuhay after ng pagkabagsak ko sa isang major ng first sem and the night after na malaman ko yung failing grade ko, nawala ng bigla yung lolo ko. Hanggang umaga yata ako umiiyak non, kasi sobrang bigat sa feeling ng dalawang pagsubok na yun. Hindi ko alam kung paano haharapin ang bukas. Yun na siguro yung climax ng kwento ko. Pero ang kagandahan ng kwento ko, kahit paulit-ulit akong umiyak at magdrama sa mga taong malapit sa puso ko, patuloy nila akong pinapalakas at pinapatibay ang loob na harapin pa ang mga susunod na pagsubok sa buhay. Sobra akong nagpapasalamat kay Lord dahil sa ginamit nyang mga tao para patatatagin ako. Sa mga taong naging parte ng 2015 ko, taos puso akong nagpapasalamat sa inyo guys, hindi ko alam kung paano ko malalampasan ang taong ito kung wala kayo. Happy New Year!

[iantheminimalist]

2015 was a very interesting and depressing year for me. The year started off with a almost-3 year break up with my girlfriend. This was a a total shock for me since I was blindsided and I had the hard time adjusting without her. With that happening in my life, I had to learn how to stand on my feet and live without my parents help. This was the first step in understanding that I need to rely on myself more and focus on me.

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This first step was very difficult because I was sheltered by my parents. I started applying myself and started working on independent web and graphics projects.

I had a part time job at best buy while waiting for a bigger opportunity to come. The opportunity did came to me in spring  when I started working at a state wide health insurance company as a web designer. I had a fun time there and I left like thing were going my way. That job led me to invest into using Apple computers and focus on what I  wanted to do.

My boss was fun to work with and I enjoyed the atmosphere of finally being able to experience the office work. Since my job was basically designing web platforms and creating graphics, I had to learn a lot about Hawaii and how the State ran. It was a lot to take in  but I remember what my professors told me. “Never ask what the user wants because they do not know what they want until they see it.” and “Test, Create, Document , Test, Repeat”. From there I heavily focused on work and nothing else. I made sure I was distracted with my depression and it worked well until I finally let go from my position (the company is no longer in service so i had to be let go). From there I to find another distraction. This led me to invest into an exciting hobby…3D Printing.

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During the end of summer, I finally invested on buying a 3d printer. From Docks for my cellphone and laptop stands to creating statues and models of famous people, I was completely obsessed with this hobby. I had fun experimenting with cool complex models as well as experimenting with the different types of plastics. It was exciting enough for me that I started a 3D printing business called 3DSoli/o. I was able to get the requirements of building a business but I am in the process of creating my very first product and sending it to Etsy or Ebay. My first customer was a good friend who bought a Darth Vader model. From that payment alone, I found something amazing about this hobby.

I started investing in the M3d Micro and the Printrbot Simple Metal. The hobby led me to inspire one of my good friends and business partner Pali to start the business. We have just started with buying 3d printers and creating objects and such. finding productive ways to further our creativity as we try out new products to make.

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As I look forward, I see an unpredictable path. I find myself a bit worried about my personal life and finding another job to keep me busy. I will try to be more assertive and to try to take more risks. In the past, I have been worried about being alone and that has caused me to be alone. With that in mind, I will try to do things differently.

For now, I will bid you adieu…

Goodbye 2015, Hello 2016 2015 was a very interesting and depressing year for me. The year started off with a almost-3 year break up with my girlfriend.

[itsalexmoriarty]

Reflection of my year. And it's been pretty great, especially since I met @tateisawimp 💗 #lifeinayear #year #2015life #trans #transboy #transguy #ftm #transgender #cuteguy #deafguy #actuallydeaf #hardofhearing #lgbt #bluehair #greenhair #boyfriend #boyfriends #couple #dog

[emmaraekisses7399]

[twikirsten]

Do not Fear 💪🙏💕💉 #TwilaKsa #NicuNurses #Purplenightsandday #2015life #flipagram

[witchymoagli]

2015 Is Here. Let's Write!

Welp, we made it to another year. I'm already starting off with too much drama, but I will navigate through it and come out a better person on the other side. Part of that journey is doing the work and planning to actually do NaNoWriMo this year. Planning now, and getting my ideas, characters and outline together will give me enough time to get it all done. Let's write! Let's make this dream happen.

[literary-head-space]

2015 Is Here. Let's Write!

Welp, we made it to another year. I'm already starting off with too much drama, but I will navigate through it and come out a better person on the other side. Part of that journey is doing the work and planning to actually do NaNoWriMo this year. Planning now, and getting my ideas, characters and outline together will give me enough time to get it all done. Let's write! Let's make this dream happen.