Jan 2, 2017
01.02.17 | i don’t really like writing in general, but i’m pretty glad i did these reflections. at first i just wanted to fill up space, but thinking about all the lessons i learned this year was really helpful.
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01.02.17 | i don’t really like writing in general, but i’m pretty glad i did these reflections. at first i just wanted to fill up space, but thinking about all the lessons i learned this year was really helpful.
2016 was eventful...
So I’m thinking about all the terrible things that happened in 2016 and getting depressed about everything. But ya know, a lot of good things happened too.
I got 3 new piercings and 1 new tattoo
Traveled in an air plane and went to the beach for the first time
Met some amazing new people and made some fantastic new friends
Went to 7 concerts!!!! And a music festival!!!
Met one of my favorite bands?!?
Met Darren Knight aka Southern Mama and Rocky Dale Davis
Went to an Impractical Jokers live show AND met the guys AND got hugs from them all??!?!!!
Booked my first cruise for this year
Every time I get down about the hot mess that last year was, I’m gonna look back at this list. Here’s to 2017′s list being much much longer 🍻
Nine Things I Learned in 2016: The Year of Getting Really, Really, Uncomfortable
Nine Things I Learned in 2016: The Year of Getting Really, Really, Uncomfortable
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into— Honesty.
—Avril Lavigne,
Patron Saint of Girls Who Once Had Their Hair Dyed Black Underneath
12/20/2016: Reflecting on this year, it’s hard to believe I wasn’t, somehow, betterat the beginning than I am now. I know this is the tricky way in which nostalgia works—it’s 90% missing how naïve and innocent you were…
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Nine Things I Learned in 2016: The Year of Getting Really, Really, Uncomfortable
Nine Things I Learned in 2016: The Year of Getting Really, Really, Uncomfortable
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into— Honesty. —Avril Lavigne, Patron Saint of Girls Who Once Had Their Hair Dyed Black Underneath 12/20/2016: Reflecting on this year, it’s hard to believe I wasn’t, somehow, better at the beginning than I am now. I know this is the tricky way in which nostalgia works—it’s 90% missing how naïve and innocent you were…
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So I went digging through my google docs and found that dumb post I wrote a few years ago when I quit TDC.
I have been on anti-depressants for a little over a year now after declining drug treatment from my doctor for a long, long time.
It was the best decision I ever made. It may not make the things I did or said when I was unwell better, but at least I know going forward that I will be better.
I am no longer the person I was two years ago where everything I did felt like it wasn’t enough, and in trying to be enough, hurt a lot of people. When I would draw back and insist on me, it was destructive. I was awful.
I still struggle to balance all of my hobbies and my real life, but that’s always going to be there. At least now, I don’t feel like I’m not enough. I’m not creating more reasons to hate myself, or find those reasons where they aren’t there.
2016 may have been pretty stupid for a lot of other reasons, but it was a year of recovery for me. I am someone entirely different now.
And I am so proud of myself.
i might have lost contact with a lot of people for the past year...former friends...former classmates...it’s been a sucky school year from the start. My grades tumbled down and i’m slowly building them back up. A dear classmate of mine died 4 months ago and i’m somehow able to function again although every day is a painful reminder. My mom lost her job and it stressing a lot since it’s hard to find a job when you are 50 years old. I had my first relationship which didn’t end the best way. My birthday ended up being the most horrible day of my life and my mental state of mind drove me to go to a psychiatrist.
but i’m still kinda breathing; still smiling, still cracking my back with the load of school work. And y’all i have to tell you, seeing you die so suddenly Chen, was a violent reminder that no matter how sucky life is, how the world is in a horrible place right now, we need to live for tomorrow. Because one day tomorrow won’t come. It will come for other people who will live and breathe in the world, not even knowing a person has ceased to exist. But those who remember, who knew you, will grieve and move on. “Live your life like tomorrow is your last day” was never such an understanding till now. So even though i feel my mind trying to shut down, my body start to give in, i’m not gonna give up. Because you know, tomorrow might be so much brighter then today.
there is so much death around us, and not enough life. I want to change that.
My New Year’s resolution is this: i will live and achieve my dreams my goals; laugh and cry and enjoy the bittersweet drink of life because i am not dead yet , and i will live for those who couldn’t. We have one chance to live in this world, I am not going to waste it. I raise a glass to you world, just you wait as i go and change you, burn you brightly and watch you grow anew.
2017 is the year i have started to breathe again after a year of a held breath, and i am not going to waste the air i draw.
2016 was a yr of mixed reviews, Funny thing is i don't remember a year that was not.
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