#21.4.2022

[prosy-days]

April 21, 2022 - Day 306

Excited that my Awesome Coffee Club coffee arrived!

[godsnameisjoy]

WORK IN PROGRESS

Date: 21 April 2022

Duration: 73 minutes at 10:22 PM

Depth:

At 70 minutes, I felt that I had covered all my routine techniques. I also felt strongly that I had not covered an hour of meditation. I opened my eyes, checked on Insight Timer app on the phone to find that I had covered 10 extra minutes to a preset 61 minutes timer.

I felt a 100% sure about NOT hearing the closing bells at 60 and 61 minutes. The bell was set at a 44% volume and it rang just fine at 0 (zero) minutes of the session. This is the part of my current phase of meditation practice that I am most content about. It is reassuring to know that with the help of meditation, my senses are able to do away with a continuous flow of life energies.

A calm state of suspended animation is desirable while working with one’s attention. Even if the attention the has not been given access to a whole new depth of mind, the last thing one wants is body related distraction. Meditation sessions can be terribly frustrating if one hasn’t found a way to temporarily forget the body. Imagine being acutely aware of a body ache while one has sat down determined to turn attention away from everything body.

Although I was at my deepest best concentration while I meditated last night, I wasn’t steady enough to register any of the intuitive thoughts. Unfortunately, I don’t have any intuitive thoughts to describe from last night. These images, despite feeling awfully real, are so irrelevant to my life that I find them absurd. There is a novelty about all things absurd and that’s why I want to be able to describe intuitive imagery.

[bonyideal]

yesterday i got to count my kalories after a looong time and i set a goal of 1500kcal for a day and i did it! and it wasn’t even hard at all and i was feeling so full!

[puregrief]

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