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Vent Art - Wrong Body

It does get better over time, but species dysphoria still lingers in my mind at times.

I still feel like a human trapped in a nonhuman body.

Nobody outside the system can see it directly because what they would see is human in shape. Something that logically wouldn't make me very dysphoric.

It still doesn't stop the dysphoria from being painful. Because my true body is the one people can't see. The one being twisted into a beastly form on a daily basis.

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Finally finished my blog's banner. I like how this turned out!

To be honest I'm not sure about my wereform's face color but for now, this will do.

Full versions + Bowser as a bonus under the cut

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(Based on my experiences, in second person POV)

There’s a ferocious beast inside of you.

When it emerged, it caused problems for you.

You have fought it for that reason,

but it was no use, for it is a part of you.

You then learned to cooperate with it. To accept it.

It was a thorny path, yet you still walked.

You knew for sure it was the right thing to do.

Months later, you’ve reached acceptance and found inner peace.

There’s a ferocious beast inside of you.

You’ve made peace with it. It has helped you understand yourself.

And yet, you still fear it, in a way.

You can still sense its tremendous power, all inside of you.

You’re nothing compared to it, because you’re a mere human.

You just can’t help but fear its power.

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Live me reaction (of me drawing this while being fully aware it’s cringe but also knowing that this is vital enrichment to me)

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And now for the thing I drew for serious practice before I did the cringe doodle yesterday

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Was looking back at some sys happenings and I ended up spitting that out as something similar to what you’d find on the back of a novel.

(Writing below the cut)

“By the time I arrived, she was already gone.”

The moment I set foot here, I instantly gained knowledge of what this realm is, and who the known residents are. Chihaya Kisaragi, in particular, once led the local residents through thick and thin.

This is no longer the case, since she died before I arrived.

I can’t explain exactly why, but I knew we have an important bond from the moment I knew her. It pushed me to revive her. I was willing to do anything to bring her back. But it was all for naught.

She did properly awaken a while later for an inexplicable reason, but he came back “wrong”. No longer the same person who once ruled the land, she is utterly damaged by the event that killed her.

This story is about how we try to reconnect. Doesn’t have to be for a greater purpose. I just… feel this desire to.

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Inspired by our Harukis who drew this. This would be my version of how my internal voice works because I have two.

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(From my other half to me)

My existence has been hurting you.

Causing you trouble.

I often feel sorry for that.

And yet.

You still don’t let go of me.

Why?

You knew I have nobody else.

And that’s why you held on,

despite the pain I have caused you.

My existence has brought you pain, on every waking moment of your life.

And yet you continued to hold on.