#24.5.2020

[bazensenidertetmeler]

Dupduru bakan ve güzel konuşan her şeyi seviyorum..

[itsonlychatter]

“Tamarac.” “Sorry, what?” “Your wife.” “Nope, not married.” “Your wife will be from Tamarac.”

[puregrief]

*بتفتح تمبلر وجنبها ناس*

طب بالسلامة أنت يا تمبلر شكلك هورني دلوقتي

[godsnameisjoy]

There is a Note !

Date: 24 May 2020

Duration: 46 minutes at 11:11 pm

Depth: Note written soon after session -

‘The reason I stopped meditating when I did was because my neck began hurting with all the shakings. The promise with the shakings is that it is a sure sign that I am a step closer to God. But the body can take only so many strong vibrations and no more.

And much like when I went from the conscious to the subconscious terrain, I am experiencing the occasional irrational fear of ghosts and other wrong turns in my journey. God ! God ! God ! That’s the cry to keep going through one’s fears. I may be on the verge of beholding the spiritual eye. So why wouldn’t I meditate ? Why wouldn’t I make the effort to last long in each session ?

‘Tried listening to the heart during the session tonight. I couldn’t hear it but I could feel it beat. The sensation was distant and weak and yet I knew that this was the heart I was looking at. It felt slower than every other occasion when I have felt the heart many times through the session.

Actually, the shakings are violent but they don’t feel violent. There is much calmness in the mind by the time the shakings come. The calmness holds despite the violent movement.

Strangely, this isn’t how I felt when I could hear my heart’s beat when I was meditating in at a lower level of concentration. This was when I could hear the heart loud and I used to be struggling with the subconscious. Then, it was disturbing. Now, I am barely aware of the heart. It is now all about the energy trying to locate my spine and disturbing everything on its way to the spine. Cool.’

[prosy-days]

May 24, 2020 - Day 339

It’s been fun doing these little designs this weekend.

[phototagebuch]

24.5.2020: Irres Wetter

[authoroflast]

I was falling. Falling through time and space and stars and sky and everything in between. I feel for days and weeks and what felt like lifetime across lifetimes. I fell until I forgot I was falling.

❤️ —Jess Rothenberg