#29.1.19

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

This is like the first new thing I've got from the frees

[devonjwerkheiser]

Devon via Insta Story

[devonjwerkheiser]

Devon via Insta Story

[devonjwerkheiser]

Devon via Insta Story

[devonjwerkheiser]

devonwerkharder “As an empath, someone once taught me to become a disco ball that I can see out of. Holding and shining my light from within it, while allowing everyone else’s stuff to be reflected back to them in a million ways. I return to this lesson sometimes. Also, yes I took this disco ball camping. Gotta have vibes at the camp site. ✌️

#losangeles #discoball #disco #empath #werkharder #werk

#glamping #sequoianationalforest #cali“

[godsnameisjoy]

29 January 2019

29 minutes at bedtime

Now this is the kind of meditation that I am talking about ! A mind surrendered to the meditation technique, at the risk of excluding all memories from the conscious mind. The risk is worth it. Surrendering to a meditation technique seemed risky at first. I couldn’t quite imagine how things would be if I chose a few moments off from my favourite thoughts. It’s quite a relief, if you ask me.

Surrendering one’s mind to meditation is a great way to build on one’s concentration muscle. It requires calmness. It requires getting used to calmness. Both these are benefits. It also highlights the single activity that you wish to give your all to - the meditation technique. The subconscious will take a backseat. The conscious might disappear altogether. Only the technique standing out.

There was a doorbell during the session that gave me a physical jolt because I had surrendered my attention deeply to meditation. The mind behaved towards the doorbell as if it was woken to the conscious due to the ring. The subconscious runs really deep, I guess. What I couldn’t quite get to, after the doorbell, was the same degree of surrender to meditation. The mind, now alert, became reluctant to travel inwards to the same distance.

The mental skill required to dive deeper in meditation than the level prior to a disturbance, is wavering in me. On some nights, I dive deeper still, even after getting disturbed. On nights like the last one, I just cannot manage to even reach the level I was at before getting disturbed. Cool. Maybe I’ll learn this skill as I keep up my practice.

With a certain degree of sustained calmness, it was possible to last a few minutes longer than 25 minutes. Cool. Also, I was smart enough to wrap myself in a sheet before I began meditating. Cool.

💕

[imkeepingtrack]

I have a cold

I just put my nose inside a tub of Vicks and couldn't smell it. Everything is great. I got back from college at 4, and was in bed by 4:30. Didn't sleep particularly well and woke up at 8, then went downstairs at 10:30 to get something to eat, but my mum was shouty and stressed so I went back to bed without getting anything. Had a graze thing that I took for lunch but didn't eat, then watched Netflix. It's now 2:30 and I feel ill-tired, but not sleepy-tired. Blegh

[traumaticfox]

Really concerned and a little scared about how she knows about him. Like we started dating after we parted ways? How does she know? How long has she known? How long has she been watching me? Did she find the new blog? Did someone tell her? What if she tries to contact him?

God, I’m so tired of living in fear of her.....