#2am confession

[blackcoffee-speysidewhisky]

I’m a very troubling thing - I’m the good and the bad. I make your head spin and your fists clench, but I can make your nose crinkle and breathe at ease. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a headache and sometimes you don’t understand why you do the things that you do; but I can tell you that it’s all because of me. I can make your eyes flood with tears and your chest feel empty while your lungs slowly start to collapse because it finally hit you that I’m all too much. I can and I will pull you in all different directions. Because I don’t make sense, and I never will. But, you cannot live without me; I give you life, I give you hope, I am your home. Through all those tears, and all those scars, all that emptiness - I am everything you’ve ever wanted. I am the one thing you will spend your whole life looking for. Because I can make your heart stop, dead in its tracks, and bring it back to life in one split second. I am love.

c.f. // "you cannot live without me"

[edriennetenchavez]

I'm sorry if I made you feel like you had to lie.

[edriennetenchavez]

I knew he deserved so much more, so much more than what I was willing to give. I was always hesitating when it came to him. I was so afraid of not giving him enough, until I realized too late, that I ended up not giving him anything at all.

Love, Regret, and So Much More

[blackcoffee-speysidewhisky]

And then all of a sudden you find that all your broken pieces start coming back together. This fits here and that goes there, and little by little you start to build back up. You can breathe again, and remember when that felt like it'll be the last thing you ever do? Look at you now. And even if it only took one person to be the reason for the storm in your eyes, you finally realize that another could be the reason why you never give up... I guess it really all does happen for a reason, the good and the bad.

c.f. // "I told you better was coming"

[blackcoffee-speysidewhisky]

Tell me about the fire in your eyes, and the broken smile you wear. Tell me why your head drops whenever that song plays or why your head spikes up at the call of his name. Tell me the things that run through your mind at three in the morning when the rest of the world is sound asleep. Tell me why you won’t wash that sweater even though you know his scent is long gone by now. Tell me about the one you loved. “I loved far too much, and he didn’t love enough,” I said.

c.f. // “sometimes things crash, and sometimes things fly”

[blackcoffee-speysidewhisky]

I’m just scared you know? What if I fall in love with him and he leaves? What if he leaves just like the rest of them? I’m not ready for that, I don’t want that mess again. I just now picked up all my broken pieces; I really, really don’t want to do that again.

c.f. // “I’m fragile, handle with care”

[cosimahummel]

I am unable to ship Kurt and Blaine with anyone but each other. Canon or fanon-wise. Anyone else I can multiship easily. ..I'll just wait for everyone to finish unfollowing me.