The export has been processing for a really long time. It may not finish by midnight.
In the meantime, I’ve been re-reading old posts.
The universe loves to foreshadow apparently.... Back in spring of 2016, I’d finally cut Josh off for good, and I was reblogging Moomin things saying I wanted them.
In October of 2016, I met Finn, and he started bringing me so much Moomin stuff all the time, but he didn’t know I wanted it.
I would love to be the weight I used to be when I was obsessing over it. Didn’t know how good I had it.
But something else I realized -- I started this blog after cutting Josh off for the final time but it also coincided with when I first got sick and was looking for answers.
So it feels like the end of an era. I symbolically choose to close the chapters of loss and sickness.
I am choosing instead to walk forward in wellness and in love. I think Finn is sticking around.
I may not get to delete the tumblr before midnight since the export is still processing, but once it’s complete, this blog will be gone to the world.
I hope to put out better things into the world going forward.
xx
