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[thatswhywelovegermany]

Die Grenzen meiner Sprache bedeuten die Grenzen meiner Welt.

The limits of my language mean the boundaries of my world.

Ludwig Wittgenstein (1889 – 1951), Austrian philosopher

(via thatswhywelovegermany)

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The export has been processing for a really long time. It may not finish by midnight. 

In the meantime, I’ve been re-reading old posts. 

The universe loves to foreshadow apparently.... Back in spring of 2016, I’d finally cut Josh off for good, and I was reblogging Moomin things saying I wanted them. 

In October of 2016, I met Finn, and he started bringing me so much Moomin stuff all the time, but he didn’t know I wanted it. 

I would love to be the weight I used to be when I was obsessing over it. Didn’t know how good I had it. 

But something else I realized -- I started this blog after cutting Josh off for the final time but it also coincided with when I first got sick and was looking for answers. 

So it feels like the end of an era. I symbolically choose to close the chapters of loss and sickness.

I am choosing instead to walk forward in wellness and in love. I think Finn is sticking around.  

I may not get to delete the tumblr before midnight since the export is still processing, but once it’s complete, this blog will be gone to the world. 

I hope to put out better things into the world going forward.

xx

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I found the export option.

I’ll be gone by midnight central time.

Thank you for so many years of listening to everything.

I love you all.

[gaylorsoftwitter]

[mayonezli]

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Walked to the clubhouse to talk to the staff, walked back, started coughing. Coughed for like 10 minutes, nothing helped, and felt weak. Had to lie down.

Feeling a little better now but what the heck was that?

Anyway, I suppose today is the day to figure out how to shut down this tumblr.

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Apparently this is true. Wild.

[engulfes]

Thinking about how when you’re a child your mother is Your Mother but when you look back on childhood she is like… a relatively young woman. With a child

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These stats are different than the home sleep study stats. But even the app says to only seek help if it is “severe” …. For under severe, it just says to make modifications to your sleep environment.

I don’t know why my snore frequency offends me lol

It also recorded my cat’s meows (which it correctly identified) and that was really cute.

The snores it recorded are sooo not attractive. Finn still claims he doesn’t usually hear me snore.

It doesn’t make a sleep profile for you until you’ve used the app for three days, so I guess I’ll see what it says after that.

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You’d actually be successful at marketing this to me if you had my size

[badsciencejokes]

4,372… 4,373…

Oh Frick – – – – - #pollencount #pollen #allergy #allergyseason #allergies #allergens #allergen #beepollen #pollenallergy #allergyfriendly #allergyawareness #allergiesgotmelike — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/aPrngs2

[lifeinpoetry]

I was never good at this body. 

There was always something in me so anxious to crawl out.

— kiki nicole, from NOBODY’S DAUGHTER

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When my hair gets to be shoulder length again, I’m going to need to figure out some way to make it look fuller. I’m honestly horrified by how thin it is. It is so, so bad.

I personally think this looks worse than it did at the worst part of my ED.

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How did I know that was coming 😵‍💫

Why are men

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Someone suggested making a salad kit and throwing it into a tortilla to make a wrap and it is honestly my favorite new thing. I made it last night. I had a wrap and some extra extra salad on the side, and then I used the rest of the salad to make this wrap for today, so I guess one salad kit would make 3 wraps. I did put some sweet earth chicken in it for protein.

I think these will continue to be in rotation. I’ll have to find some gluten free alternatives though.

[psychoticallytrans]

A Thing:

-many disabilities are worsened or triggered into flares by stress

-stress often occurs when other people are counting on you and there's a crunch to get things done

-employers regularly understaff, creating constant dependency on particular people and creating unneeded crunches

-disabled people become "unreliable" and "unhireable" because they have disabilities and cannot safely deal with the mandatory crunches

-on top of that, the crunches give previously abled people disabilities, shunting them into "unhireable"

-dismantle capitalism and care for your community members

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A guy from the iron group had messaged me a while ago and we’ve just been talking ever since. Today he asked why I don’t come back to Germany for insurance (bro, I wish!!!) and I explained I couldn’t figure out a way to stay.

Now it’s more than that — I no longer have family there to stay with if things go poorly or end up in the hospital, I’d be alone. I didn’t tell him that.

I’d never “make up a story” or even apply for asylum as I feel it’s a waste of their resources when I *can* make it here. But this new law he mentions is interesting. I wonder if it’s true. I could see it being true.