#4.0.4

[secrettransabledblog]

I wish people took my dysphoria more seriously.

I’m not like this because i’m a neurotypical who wants to be quirky. I’m already psychotic, and my psychosis is literally the reason i identify as transabled. It’s the reason I consider myself trisschizoaffective. I’m already like this, i just want it to be worse. I hate that medication has taken my psychosis from me. It feels wrong. Like i’m missing something.

You only care about psychotic people when we’re palatable. The second we do something weird you kick us to the side.

[thefurriestofchows]

y’know cowboy white hat?

yeah...

i’m most likely gonna draw more of these fools in the future 

[secrettransabledblog]

The urge to stop taking my antipsychotics so i can experience a modicum of euphoria.

[secrettransabledblog]

bought a cart of a strain i know triggers my episodes. im excited.

[secrettransabledblog]

I’ve been having some symptoms lately.

I’ve feel like god is speaking to me. Through songs and through the art i produce with my own hands. God, existence itself, creation embodied. God gave me purpose.

I feel so scared but so happy. I want to stay like this forever. I feel so full of bliss.

[secrettransabledblog]

I think i might be transintersex too idk. I’m really hesitant to accept my transIDs in general. I feel like i’m taking up space i shouldn’t. Maybe i should stay closeted forever.

[secrettransabledblog]

literally cant even have a droplet of community bc it seems like i get harassed in every transid/rq server i join.

[secrettransabledblog]

I wish I wasn’t created in a way that would make everyone hate me. Why couldn’t i have been normal and likeable?