#4.1.2022

[bastardpacs]

[thebonesofhoudini]

Here’s tonight’s show. You can hear me in the first 5 minutes cuss out Twitch for messing with my livestream. Otherwise, the DJ set came out pretty damn good. A little shorter than usual.

Tracklist

Brothers' Vibe - Manos Libre

Mike Delgado - Cave Man's Groove

DJ RaSoul - Early Morning Showers

YMC - Fast City

Lorenzo - Get Deep

Mint - Hochlicht

Nyra - Orbiter

Fred Everything - One For Me

Daso - Why Try (Fred P Reshape)

Malin Genie - Eye

Leonid - 67 Jam

Phaze Dee - Basic Luv

Daze Maxim - On The Way Back

Black Jazz Consortium - Stay

Unknown Artist - Seven Days Left

Rod Modell - Kingston

Gaetano Battista - Deep Innit

DaRand Land - B1 Untitled

Alton Miller - Between The Middle

Jay Sound - Late Nite Feelings (JYSNDS NY House Rework)

[labetalol]

🦀 time for crab 🦀

today i summoned 7 crabs! i became friends with one 🌼 of them.

group picture!!!

🦀🌼 🦀 🦀 🦀 🦀 🦀 🦀

[bastardpacs]

[prosy-days]

January 4, 2022 - Day 199

Back on the doily making.

[godsnameisjoy]

PEACE AS A PRESERVATIVE

Date: 4 January 2022

Duration: 57 minutes at 10:24 PM

Depth:

My attention belonged more to intuition than to meditation through this meditation session. I don’t think I completed a single mind exercise of the 3 that precede Hong Sau. Opening prayer, count breathing and tensing-relaxing exercises precede Hong Sau in that order. These exercises are a part of my meditation routine for a decade and a half at least.

For the attention to get caught with a particular sublayer of one’s mind does not frustrate after one experiences Peace in one’s practice. That’s the good news. Peace is a blessing. When my practice was young and still in the realms of my subconscious, I would speak negatively of meditation sessions such as last night’s. Among my favourite terms back then was ‘subconscious shenanigans’. With the Presence of Peace, even bad news sounds good.

That term, ‘subconscious shenanigans’, was true too. Subconscious mind just can’t help it. It is designed to play out unfulfilled earthly desires. Last night, I slept after meditating. I had my share of nightly dreams through this sleep. Yet, I can tell now, in the morning after, that there was one dream that readily revealed its hidden agenda. While I was still dreaming the dream, the multilayered mental disguise kept undoing itself until a word undid the dream.

Peace makes it possible to evoke friendship from parts of one’s mind that aren’t otherwise as suited to meditation as the Peaceful sublayers of intuition. This is the good news with regards last night’s meditation. In meditation, I believe I stepped into a part of the intuitive sublayer where I have never been before. The unsaid uncertainty about the nature of this sublayer probably made it possible for intuition to ensnare my attention. However, all mental faculties involved in such a meditation had Peace running under.

That’s the power of Peace. It can seep through the hardest rock of one’s oft used psychological furniture. Peace reassures the meditator of letting go of old methods of self preservation. A bunch of self preserving survival techniques have to be off-loaded from one’s memory in order to surrender to a God-like Peace during meditation.

My body continues to slump forward once in any given session. This allows my body to sleep through my meditation sessions. My upper body shakes involuntarily with life energies. I believe that my upper spine has to undergo some change in order to contain life energies. My body’s shakes are mild when my concentration is high. Those same shakes turn strong when my concentration is relatively shallow.

I have a strong feeling that I am about to see for myself the nature of relatively deep sublayers of intuition. For now, it is going to be a sublayer that lies beyond the sublayer of slow paced intuitive imagery and disappearing breathing.

[puregrief]

أحا أنا متضايقة فشخ فعلًا 😃

[puregrief]

I think I'm officially at the age where I'm the only single woman around the people I know 😃 like kids are getting married now I kid you not 😂 I do not like this feeling at all! Maybe it'll be more bearable when I'm the rich single aunt who's living abroad, but right now? I fucking hate it!