#4.10.2018

[puregrief]

"مكانش معايا فلوس فقلتله خلي اللاب هروح أجيب وأرجعلك قالي لأ خديه والخير في أمتي وبتاع كان نفسي أقوله أنا مش من أمتك."

٤/أكتوبر/٢٠١٨

[prosy-days]

October 4, 2018 - Day 107

My new mattress came! Now I just need the rest of the set-up...

[tokwanfx]

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[seba-paseba]

И опять. Веришь, нет?

Голова раскалывается, пульсируют виски, дёргается левый глаз, веки безумно горячие, ком в горле, в лёгких - жжение, все внутренние органы будто сводит судорогой, тянет блевать и рыдать, какая-то дикая паника. Если бы была возможность орать - я бы орал до потери сознания и срыва голоса, но пока ещё в состоянии себя контролировать. Поспать? Куда там, я даже лежать спокойно не могу, не метаясь по всей кровати. Чувствую себя так, будто с меня живьём сдирают кожу. Дерьмо.

hurts. hurts. hurts. HURTS. HURTS.

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Выпью валерианки [единственное хоть какое-то успокоительное, что у меня имеется] и сделаю вид, что всё путём.

[seba-paseba]

Хочу, чтоб Жизнь подкинула лимонов. У меня неожиданно закончились, в магазин выходить ну очень неохота, а чайку выпить не с чем :с

[ignis-et-equi]

Canada is England's Good Kid™ that left home at the perfect age and still respects the advice of their parents, but makes their own decisions with a sound mind and temperament.

Australia is the kid that skipped college and had a #vanlife phase due to an argument with England that resulted in England kicking them out. They've matured a bit now and realize that while England was in the wrong, their parental imput is still valuable.

The United States is the rebellious teenager that stormed out of the house one day because of "stupid rules and shit." Being the Prodigal Son, they abandoned their family and only visit when they have to during reunions. Everyone groans and starts drinking when they walk into the room to prepare for the United States' egotistical, narcissistic, loud mouthed opinions.

[ignis-et-equi]

Shit in the Void

Oh my god. My ADD brain WILL NOT slow down. So this is me dumping shit into the void.

I adulted today, like, a lot. I went to my job orientation, took my mom to the doctor, went grocery shopping, AND set up an appointment for a consolation for an IUD with a highly recommended Gynecologist. Hopefully, by this time next month, I will finally be on the birth control of my choice, and it will be entirely covered by my insurance. I am so fucking delighted by this.

Speaking of gynecology, my left ovary is in pain. I thought it was just an upset stomach, but after a hot shower, the pain is definitely coming from That Particular Spot. Which is weird, because I’m in between ovulating and my period, and my last ovulation was particularly painful. So... yeah. I’ll be bring that up with the doc when I see her.

Note to self: Write down names and dosages of the medications I’m on to bring in for that appointment.

Orientation went really well. It was pretty standard HR stuff. The do’s and don’t’s, etc. The best part was after the paperwork when I got to see more of the museum. I park behind the building, go through security, clock in, and walk through one of the exhibits to get to work, which is totally freaking awesome. There’s so much stuff to look at. I definitely need to take a day before I start to go wander around considering I get free admission. Additional bonuses include getting paid for the hour and fifteen minutes I was there today, in addition to at least 12 hours worth of training next week. So, my first paycheck will be over $100 and I don’t have to wait until May to get it.

Holy fuck. I’m gonna be 23 in 6 days. What the hell. Why. How.

Oh! Guess what?! Since I started vaping again on Saturday, I have cut down SO MUCH on my cigarette consumption. Like... I think I’ve had 5 since Saturday? A full 3 days ago! I am so relieved to get this taken care of ‘cause it’s definitely gonna help me a SHIT TON in the long run. Especially considering, 5 years ago, almost to the day, I had my first cigarette. And that is way too fucking long for a 23 year old to have been a smoker. (Honestly, any length of time is too long.)

Aaaahhh.... What else...?

Oh! I got a $50 gift card to Walmart from my grandmother today and I’m not exactly sure what to spend it on? Maybe video games? I should probably look online and poke around. I considered using it to buy a Steam or Amazon gift card if they’ll let me.

Ugh. I have soooooo much I wanna plan and list out. I started working on a Master To Do List yesterday of all the shit I need to get done before I start working, like shearing sheep and organizing the pantry. Also need to work on my life goals list, ‘cause that’s been on my mind lately.

That reminds me. I need to set up a bank account before I go in for training next week.

There’s also stuff about my mom and my trip to Canada that’s floating around but I don’t really have words for all of that yet.

On the bright side, my amazing, wonderful, caring boyfriend told me multiple times today that I’m cute and that he’s proud of me.