Call it natural selection
Call it my own natural selection. I am glad I did not have kids. If I did they would also struggle with mental illness, developmental/learning issues etc. I am not about to be so selfish that I just have to bring someone into this world when I know better. It goes beyond the pain. It goes beyond my body changing. It goes into the future after that. What will that child be born with? Poverty is learned and generational. Why would I repeat the cycle? Never once have I gotten pregnant. I was married; never pregnant. I hoe’d around; never once got pregnant. Just because I’m dating, fucking or married, does not mean “well, it is just a byproduct.” No. Not in my reality. I choose to think. Not just live blindly and by chance. Life shouldn’t be so flippant. I am in control of my life and my decisions. A new life should never be an accident. I am doing them a favor by thinking. By recognizing how this all works. I love them too much to damage them too.