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My favorite distractions:
paint my nails
plan a novel
take a walk
try on clothes
practice makeup looks
read smutty romance
sunbathe
take a nap
use teeth whitening strips
draw or paint
study a language
shop for lingerie
do chores
get a massage
learn a dance
Would love to get more ideas.
I’m trying to find more 4a4 bloggers in their late 20s/early 30s. I feel it’s a whole different experience than struggling in our teens and early 20s. Feels both more shameful and more dire 💀 and yet I continue. I want to feel less alone out here in these edblr streets lol.
I think I subconsciously feel like I don’t deserve to take care of myself until I hit my GW. I’ve neglected so many essential self-care habits for so long, I just do the bare minimum to be presentable at work.
It’s not a helpful belief at all. It would be so much better for me if I gave a shit about myself lol. I don’t hate myself and I don’t love myself either. I just don’t care.
When I achieve my goal I hope I will have earned my own respect.
I’ve had dirty dishes rotting in my sink for weeks and it’s actually making it easier to restrict because walking into my kitchen disgusts me.
For week 1, I averaged 467kcal/day. I succeeded in my goal of staying under 500kcal/day, I feel so proud! I must remember this feeling because week 2 will be an even greater challenge.
I’ve already noticed some changes, like clearer skin and slimmer fingers. My appetite has reduced drastically too.
Even so, I need to prepare myself mentally for the hunger pangs and weakness I know are coming. I have a long way to go.
Already my shoes feel too big and my rings are slipping off my fingers? I know that’s probably just water weight/inflammation coming off, but it feels good.
I just wanna lose my period. The hormone fluxes leading up to it make me so depressed and lowkey wanna kms. Losing it would actually benefit my mental health I think.
I feel so much more full when I plate my meals thoughtfully and eat with cute utensils. It feeds all my senses, not just my belly but my eyes and my mind. Aesthetics are integral to satisfaction for me.
