It's Not Easy
I have PCOS, and I no longer keep it a secret. People do not understand what that entails. They see pics of me working out, staying active, eating clean, etc. It is NOT easy! None of it is easy! I do it because I HAVE to, just in order to live a somewhat healthier existence.
My day starts at 3:30am. I get up, brush my teeth, wash my face, and make a protein shake. Lastly, I drag myself (some days) to the car, and drive to the gym. At the gym, I do both cardio and seriously heavy weight training. Especially since, I am so strong, and easily able to put on muscle. That's awesome for me because I am a bodybuilder, but also difficult, because the scale can be extra deceiving.
I get home by 6am, only to take my 3 dogs out for their first 1.5 to 2 mile walk. Get home again, and have my second meal of double fiber bread and peanut butter. Oh, and don't forget the cup of Cafe Bustelo. Depending on the day of the week, later in the day will be fighting through one to two hours of Krav Maga training.
All of this, and I am still over 200lbs at 5'9.5! I make no excuses, and I take no shorts. For those who ask why I get up so early, it is because I want to live! I am the worst case scenario with PCOS. I had endometrial cancer that I battled for 13 years, and finally won against it last year. But, there are so many other things that comes with PCOS. Diabetes, insulin resistance, excessive facial hair, the difficulty losing weight, higher rate of heart disease, the possibility that I will have to fight cancer again, etc.. The list goes on.
So I workout as hard as I can, eat as healthy as I can, and stay as positive as I can, because I have to. Why do I have to? Because there is so much more that I know about me. There is so much knowledge about this disease I have to share with other women. There is so much I have to live for.
So if you see me in the gym, please do not comment on the hair on my chin, the fact that I have a very obvious layer of fat covering my muscles, or the fact that my outfit does not match. Some days, I just do not give a fuck about your opinion of the version of me you are seeing!
