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5:09pm
أريد للشمس أنْ لا تدخلَ غرفتي فحسب، بل تشرق وتستقر بداخلي دون أي حراك.
I didn’t mean to sleep the entire afternoon but I guess here we are? I liked that I got to feel useful this morning. The problem if that I was too fast and I couldn’t make the usefulness last into the afternoon. I mean, I wasn’t going to sit there and waste time, but then I had nothing to do after lunch so I just slept. Which I blame on my cat, who woke me up at 4 am. Now I’m just waiting for Connor to finish work so we can go to the store together. Hoping it’s soon. I’ve been missing him.
Need sis so I can make sure I’m doing things right, so I’ll be here until she gets off work
I believe I woke up at 8 something today.
I’ve had this one story for like—what, 4-5 years?—and only now am I actually like, writing down what happens. Not “writing the story” writing it down, but just… more like “basically the order of how things happen” writing it down. Wild.
the fact that i know life is so boring and won’t change drives me crazy. i don’t have enough knowledge or talent to make a difference. and everyone i talk to says i need to enjoy the little things, and i do!!! i absolutely do but holy shit the small things aren’t really worth it at this point??? which is sad but ????? idk. i don’t know how to put my feelings into words without sounding depressed, which isn’t the case! i’m actually very happy right now, i just know that i’m not going to go anywhere in life and that scares me. it’s boring at this point and the only way i can get out of it is..... DEATH LOL which sucks but. it’s okay. but i also can’t leave bc i have friends and family that care for me :( so i’m just stuck. i’m so stuck and i don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. and i don’t even know how to put it all into words as i’ve said before.
i’m just so stuck :(
Highlight OF MY LIFE
I was at work and this baby was crying so i went up to him and started saying “hi bubba” and just took my finger and like rubbed his arm and he grabbed my hand finger in his tiny hand and started laughing, and i stepped away for two seconds to help another customer and hestarted crying again and stopped when i came back and he was in his daddys arms and he was like sticking his arms out like he wanted me to hold him and my heart melted and i have major baby fever now and also i feel so blessed