Summary - In the fallout of an undercover operation gone wrong, how will Jay look after and protect his partner?
Word Count: 854
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In an instant, Jay was at her side. He grabbed her hand and stroked it with his. She continued to cry so he carefully lent her forward and sat on the bed beside her. She lent back into him as his arms snaked around her. Y/N was safe now. He repeated that over and over until she fell asleep in his arms, safe.
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Jay had stayed with her all night, just holding his partner. She woke several times that night, in sweats, screaming for him to get off her, to leave her alone. She was confused. But he would stay, whispering comfort to her until she fell back to sleep. He tried to stay strong, hiding the cracking of his voice until she couldn’t hear him, and then the choked sobs would escape.
Will was working that night so he regularly came up to check on them, mainly to provide comfort to his brother, who he knew was attempting to hold it together for his partner. But really it was Voight who was able to do this. After Y/N had first fallen asleep, the sergeant came up and sat in the armchair across from her bed.
He stayed all night, stepping in to help calm Y/N down. Comforting Jay when he would fall apart as she fell back asleep.
“Halstead.” The gruff voice made him look up from his hand entwined with Y/N’s. The sergeant was hovering in the doorframe, his eyes seeking for permission to come in.
“Hey sarge. She just fell back asleep.” Jay’s voice was low and heavy. Voight entered and sat in the leather armchair across from the pair. He watched as Jay rubbed his free hand across his eyes. Jay was tired and barely holding it together, the guilt was eating away at him.
“Halstead, how are you doing?” The question took his subordinate by surprise, Y/N was the one who was hurt, and he was the one who let it happen. “Um … okay. I’m just so worried about her, Sarge. She keeps waking up screaming, I hate this.” It was a feeble attempt at deflection. He rubbed his hand across his tired face.
“Jay…” before he could finish Halstead had let out a stifled sob. Voight knew Jay felt guilty, felt like he didn’t deserve comfort and wouldn’t listen if someone told him it wasn’t his fault. So instead, he got up, walked over to his detective and placed a hand on his shoulder. Guided by his sergeant’s hand, Jay slid away from beside Y/N and stood up.
Voight embraced Jay in a tight hug and allowed his detective to cry. Halstead wasn’t one to be vulnerable in front of anyone, let alone his superiors but in that moment, he needed to. The guilt, the stress, his pain and his love and worry for his partner was too heavy on his shoulders.
Will, on a ten minute break, had made his way up to Y/N’s room to check on his brother. But when he reached her room and saw the two men embracing, he stopped, then returned to the elevator to grab a coffee instead. His little brother was in good hands.
The next morning, Y/N was to have a few more tests, then hopefully would be discharged that afternoon on bed rest. The rest of the team had popped by to say hi, Y/N was putting on a laughing, sunshine front as they visited but Jay knew it wouldn’t last long.
Once the team had all left a few hours later, Y/N was quiet. Her eyes were cast down and each time Jay tried to get her to look up she would close off. She appeared to be ashamed, ashamed of him.
“Y/N” It wasn’t a question. Jay needed her to acknowledge him. “Look at me Y/N, talk to me” still she didn’t look up. Jay got up from the armchair in the corner and walked towards her. He perched on the side of her bed and reached his hand out for hers, but she flinched.
“Y/N please.” When she finally looked up Jay saw her eyes filled with tears and it broke his heart. “Y/N please talk to me. I’m sorry. I hated what I had to do yesterday. I hated every second of it.”
“I know Jay. I know but … it felt so real” Y/N replied, her bottom lip quivering. Jay knew what she meant, he had pretended to be some perverted pimp that wanted to ‘buy’ her and although it was to save her life, the way he grabbed her and threw her behind the truck had sparked a pain in both of them.
“Y/N look I know what I did hurt you, fuck Y/N/N it broke my heart but I had to.” Jay was in full on tears by now and his eyes were pleading for his partner’s permission.
“I know. And I forgive you” Y/N finally choked out. And with that, Jay embraced his partner knowing all would be alright.
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I hope you guys enjoyed ... wasn't the best but enjoyed writing it anyway!
Jesse looks so good. And I am so very excited about the new part on FBI International
I love that it is a new role, not Jay (and you know I love Jay). Because Jesse is a fantastic actor, and I can't wait to see him shine in a different role
