What should I say in reply to his dating progress?
"Congratulations. Glad you have time for love again."
As you told me you didn't have time for yourself, much less our relationship, for months, until we broke up.
Time alone is not at fault, but something beyond measure and analysis, I am clueless which.
...
"A match set up by his parents"
A chill ran down my spine and then a deep, yet dull, pain pulled me down in a fog of sadness. I couldn't feel much, however, guessed that numbness was welling up within my empty heart.
Can this be happening?
Haven't I moved on yet? When I came to realize there was no turning back?
Was it over? When I felt more in love with memories than the person in front of me, neither sad nor happy in my presence?
I didn't know.
Was it because I was cut off of his life or of our failed pairing?
Or, first and foremost, my love, again, couldn't survive pressures and obstacles.
I am sorry, love, for all the trouble I have caused. A tricky journey hah? *there there* *patting on the back*
There is no happy ending even when we had it in mind and be prepared. The ending is the saddest part, so let me just be grateful for a happy middle and a very happy start. The rest of it, allow me to be agonized.
...
A part of me saying if I am such a nice and kind person like I always think of, there will be someone who loves me for me. Someone isn’t him. Someone who is happy to see me, make a move towards me and invest a world in a future with me. Same as I do.
Another part: we must go on adventures to find out where we belong. We both deserve it.
Every step of the way, we are discovering factors that affect our decisions going forward.
...
Both in search of a good fit and trying hard with a person to work it out is full of challenges, risks and surprises.
