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Commission by the wonderful @quincysue-art

I love them and this piece dearly. Happy 12th anniversary to them and them only.

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Trick or treat!

Hi @keldae!

I'll admit I'm trying to tailor these as much as I can and we don't talk much...so, I'm going to say the quiet part out loud and then get back to this. I will be the first to admit I 100% followed you because I was intrigued you were the only other person I could find writing consular/agent or Jedi/agent fic in some way shape or form.

Of course, I stayed for the awesome writing, cosplays, and general taste in Tumblr posts...but I don't think I've made it any secret on this blog that consular/agent and the characters we write in those roles are incredibly dear to me. That said, finding someone else who was not only writing that pairing for their own OCs...but co-writing the pairing with a friend was amazing and immediately made me go 'oh sweet, same vibes as me and @gothamcityneedsme'. Plus you clearly had impeccable taste sooooo...easiest decision to follow =D.

And so, for a moment, I'm going to rant about an agent/consular project I willingly took on myself. Because for some reason, two years ago, I thought it would be a good idea to do a sort of...character study/relationship study on how our agent and consular actually progress through a relationship and get to where they are the power couple of the galaxy. I say two years ago, because a 4-part project turned into a 6-part project turned into a now standing 8-part project. Part 1 is ~28k and still has 3 or 4 story beats to hit before it's completed. Various ideas and scenes written consist of 41 separate documents on my phone and 7 or so separate documents on my computer.

I've made my mistakes.

I do not regret my mistakes, but I certainly acknowledge that I made them. The intricacies and depths it takes to analyze two incredibly traumatized individuals, standing on opposites sides of the war, and how they get together, AND THEN consider one of them technically isn't even your character are uh...a lot. And even though I don't know all the intricacies of your consular/agent pairing (I probably don't know most of them, as is the nature of co-writing and all I think)...something just tells me you're one of the few who can understand and appreciate these specific frustrations and the need to comically scream about them sometimes.

If I'm over-assuming, then if nothing else I at least hope I got a chuckle out of my hopeless endeavors. Happy Halloween! :D

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Something something the juxtaposition between "I wanna love you but I don't know how" and "I just want to learn how, somehow, to be loved myself"

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Something something there's something poetic in the way her dogged determination to heal comes from wanting to be what the world around her needs, and his in those final steps comes from wanting to be what she needs

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Something something when you're the narrative foil to your lover, but each of you are also narrative foils to each of your respective past abusers, creating a four-way reflection of trauma.

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Something something the call and response between “Will you see me, love? Who am I in your temple?” and “You’ve become a tempo that my heart knows”

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@warpweft​ We can go to 100. But you selected a winner here.

42. Savior (Ghost Note Symphonies) - Rise Against

Since there is literally no way to hide what part 3 is about with this song...have 2 phone notes:

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@warpweft​ The 9 looks normal to me at least...

9. Vulture, Vulture - Of Monsters and Men

Good news! There’s an as of yet to be finished 26k+ Word document sitting in our discord server that is the direct answer as to why this song breached top 10.

We’ll trail towards where I last left off:

She was slow to turn to him, and his heart twisted when her glossy eyes finally met his, brimming with tears and cracking under the weight of her history. Though, there was something else in her expression too, a subtle, nearly imperceptible will that was begging him not to turn away from this, not to cast her aside.

This was…not a story she had told anyone. No one knew this, not this deeply anyways, not this personally. She had never spoken her own experience in her own words, and he realized with a sudden, jarring clarity that despite her own anger with him, despite the pain he inadvertently caused her, she was still trusting him. She was entrusting her story to him, speaking the words of a past she buried deep within the shadows of her heart and ignored for far too long.

She was asking him to bear witness to her, and she was trusting him not to turn away.