#7-30-18

[its123am]

7-30-18 (Monday)

[vampirequeeer]

3 good things a day

- pank’s not busy anymore so it’s back to talking and anime

- got so much done in skyrim bye mercer lol

- chia pudding still really good

[pizzabagelstheanime]

dream 11

i barely remember anything except this one specific part where my family were going into a car (that wasn't even one we havr??? it was black inside and out and had three rows)

also fuckin glass joe from punch-out!!! was comin along too apparently and i watched as he came into view on my left side (i sat in middle row, left or middle seat???). he mightve opened the door just to say hi to me. in accented english he said, "hello, how are you?" and i freaked the fuck out bc it's glass joe and scrambled for several seconds trying to think of a french response but i don't know like any fucking french so i just sputtered like "EUHHHhhhhhhhhhHhh bonne.,,,,,,, merci.." he just smiled, nodded, and walked away to get to the back row

[one-way-radio]

Except you don't want confession. Oh well

[artiya-il-muriel-chamuel-blog]

Finally made it to Wisconsin.

Phone broken, naturally

Daniella was kind enough to let me use her ipad until my phone gets in

I am always trying to make strings where they really shouldn't be.

I sit or lay and daydream of the endless possibilities of scenarios that will never come true.

I can't help myself though.

It makes me feel warm

Curious.

I love the bubbly feeling.

You know, the one where it's kind of a crush but also just the excitement of understanding and being understood by someone new.

It comes and goes.

I gave the necklace away.

I entrusted a special someone to throw it in foreign waters.

I still don't know how I feel about that.

I'm horrible when it comes to letting go.

I guess this was a good next step.

I have this obsessive tendency to learn as much as I can about someone when I'm interested in them. Friendship wise and more

I search for the new music they introduced to me, i look up the place where they've lived to see what that must've been like, i just go down this little rabbit hole and pile on as much information as my brain can take

Which in retrospect isn't that much. I wish I could remember more things that actually mattered

This week I was pretty energetic. There were some mornings I couldn't fake it and I would just sit by a booth and whoever wanted to sit next to me would but I personally wouldn't sit in the bigger groups.

I thought a lot about the past and how I got there and you know me with the past 🙄 forever in my feels when it comes to thinking about the three major things in my life that broke me down and that I'm still trying to build myself up after.

Mer.

Everyone left to either to their site or home. So many different states. I won't see them until January, some maybe even after. That blows my mind but that's life, I'm happy i even got to experience them in my life.

The biggest question is, what now ?

Que hago ahora ?

Flow. Just flow and flow and pour myself into everything I do.

Energy energy

I'm going to need lots of it.

[one-way-radio]

IT TOOK ME AN HOUR AND 20 MIN BUT I HAVE A HAIR WRAP NOW YEEHAW