Nov 7, 2020
Fazladan bir nefes alıyorsun oda yaşamaya yetmiyor, eksik kalıyor..
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Fazladan bir nefes alıyorsun oda yaşamaya yetmiyor, eksik kalıyor..
Gerisi ölüm ile aynı işte...
we’re all 50 shades of fucked up
Trigger warning: self harm
I used to cut myself a few years back, I think my last relapse was over two years ago or something. The thing is, whenever I did I'd wear long sleeves and when it's time to sleep I'd lay on my arms so there won't be a chance for my cuts to show while I'm asleep. Back then that made sense cause I shared a room with my sister, so if I tossed and turned and my cuts were exposed I'd be in so much trouble, so I just slept on them even if it hurt waaaay more, cause it was "safer" that way. What's bothering me right now is that I no longer cut myself and I have my own room, but I still sleep on my arms every night and hide them. It became kind of a habit, a weird one, and I don't think anyone has ever noticed it, but I'm afraid if one day someone did notice it I wouldn't be able to explain this weird sleeping position and the story behind it. Here you have it, Tumblr. Now let's keep it covered.
Obsessed with my birthday nails
Супермаркет. Смотрим с мамой блокнот с обложкой из пробкового материала, на магнитной застёжке, со встроенными стикерами, ручкой и чистыми листами на спиральке. В общем, прелесть.
Мама: Классная вещь! Давай купим, у тебя же есть денюшки.
Я:....
Я: Нет. Пошли лучше бабушке памперс купим. *Откладываю блокнот, ухожу*
Перелом в том, что я отказываю себе в приятных мелочах взамен на благополучие близких. Мы потом купили бабушке памперс в аптеке, классный, как раз ей по размеру.
Но есть жирное НО!
Я в супермаркете купила себе маленькую шоколадку за три гривны. Так что всё в порядке, я не страдалец и по крайней мере ущемляю себя не полностью. Что поделать, такие наступили времена.
А сейчас, я пойду смаковать свою вкусняшку и выполнять мамины поручения по дому.
GOOD MIND BAD MIND
Date: 7 November 2020
Duration: 53 minutes at 11:53 pm
Depth:
Concentration got progressively better as the meditation hour progressed. It is good to have a restless mind turn considerably quiet in roughly 50 minutes. To have a mind that behaves predictably positively, is a good mind. The stubbornly restless mind is the bad kind.